My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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micmel. Yes, I believe in the threes thing. It happened to our family. My DH died on September 3, my father exactly one month later. Then three months later, my 26 year old nephew was killed in an avalanche while he was snow boarding. It was excruciating to deal with those three deaths so close together. That was over seven years ago and it has not happened since. So, maybe it won't ever happen again. It is kinda spooky though.
Gracie I'm no help at all. I'm so scared of brain mets, I think I would die of heart failure if I ever get that DX. After being on this forum, I know there are so many here who have had Brain TX and have really well. So, my fear is unfounded. I hope the best for you.💞
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Holmes, it’s always those unknowns that get to me!!!! I’m home! Got through it! The techs were wonderful! Monday will be easier now that I know what to expect.now, hoping for no se’s cause I took no dexa..
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Gracie, I was hoping that we would hear from you this evening so we would know that you made it through treatment number one. I am happy that your first treatment is done, and you are okay. Take it easy this weekend. Prayers for youwill continue.
Hugs and prayers from, Lynne
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Thanks for your prayers Lynne. I just sang a line from a song over and over and over. Got me through
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Gracie I'm the same way. I'm glad everything went ok. Take this weekend and rest.
grannax 2- you are a very strong woman to have gotten through all of that. Death is hard enough when it's just one person.
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Gracie~ strong woman. One down. Hopefully NOT many to go. Love you friend. Glad it's done. Was thinking of you all.
Grannax~ thinking of your daughter. Always in my thoughts
Holmes~. Nice to see you this Saturday morning!
Last night was a very big night. I could tell something was bothering my daughter. She was quite quiet which with her is a miracle. She called downstairs to me and asked me if I could come upstairs to My room. Went I walked I into the room, she had been crying, she launched into my Arms, and I could tell she was very shaken and confused, scared upset, you name it. It was like the past 20 years all played back in her head. She was more upset than I have ever seen her. Although, it was hard to see. It was something I believe needed to happen, in her heart she knows she loved her beautiful home. She knows she was treated with nothing but love and security. She said she would miss her room. The house the dog. Me. Our neighborhood, everything. It was like another girl. She's overwhelmed I think and took it out on me. I honestly think she doesnt even really want to go. But knows she is now married and is a adult now. I think it was her letting go of a child hood she loved. A worried that this parent (me) won't always be there to save her from herself and sometimes even others. It was touching moment.
One that I desperately needed. I've never seen her like this. Reality is creeping in slowly. Her beautiful air conditioned huge home. She is leaving today. Purple chosen walls, with her choice of carpet, everything Taylor made to the little princess. Officially moved out Tomorrow, my DH who is the one that they had bd mouthed and disrespected is the reason they are moved. He packed the van twice for them. Driving one load now over and unloaded it. He is there now. If it wasn't for him. No one would be around to help, gotta admit and say...my son went out last to celebrate one of his friends 21st birthday and he didn't Get up in time to even help. But my DH did and he is the only one who is again doing what he said he would do. Even though all that happened and his feelings are still hurt. He kept his word, like a real man does. I guess we will see if they stay here tonight? Or at their new home. All of their stuff will be there after this last load. Therefore, they need to be setting up there tonight. So. It looks like one of my chickens has flown the coop. She will slowly realize what she had..... if it hasn't started already. I could tell she was feeling the closeness with me last night. I could see her in her eyes. It was my DH. Bearing her feelings. Telling me how she feels. Finally. Maybe I won't loose her after all. I sure hope for smoother waters. Ahead. But my heart twinged, but I didn't cry. I held her and told her I love her and this will always be her home it was quite lovely and much needed...
thanks for all the advice and support ladies. This one was a total rough one for sure !
Much love ~M~
Waving hello to Lynne (50’s) hope you’re doing well!
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Micmel, sure sounds like she turned a corner! Hoping for much better days ahead for you two!
Grannax, thanks so much for the well wishes. Means a lot to me. Keeping you and your daughter in my prayers. Cannot begin to imagine how much stress there must be. Hugs!!
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I have been away, but reading loads to catch up. Lots of good news, but lots of bad, too, I'm sorry to read, and too much to address, so I'll just wave hi to all.
I could be wrong, but I think Marijen's post from June 25th may have been missed because I didn't see any acknowledgment. Thanks, Marijen: "So...I have just received a message from Bluebird's (Diane) niece Shannon and maybe others here have too. She has given me her email and also Diane's DH contact info. Please PM me and I will forward to you. She said Diane passed away peacefully on May 22nd surrounded by family and friends just as she wanted. So sad for my friend Diane. I did receive the news at the time while on a trip. I think her niece would really appreciate all of our responses. Thanks."
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Bliss~ welcome back. Glad you're safe. I remember announcing it on the thread a little while back but If wouldn't mind PM'm me the address I would... love to share my thoughts and memories of a wonderful woman and writer. Thank you so much.
It's official Gracie. They are moved out. I walked past the room and I cried. It's empty as the day we moved in, which was officially 20 years ago. My little girl Is married and has moved out. Where did the time go? It's a sad and a happy day. She held my hand when she walked out the door and said see you Monday if not sooner. I'm Invited over to their house for lunch. She has the day off. So I'm going to go check it out. I'm so relieved that things have calmed down. I'm taking a needed nap. Much needed much love to all~M~
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awww, Micmel, I know how hard that had to have been!!! Sending you lots of cyber hugs! I hope you hear from her just immediately! Love ya girlfriend❤️❤️
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I'm so happy to report that my remodel of my bedroom and bath is finished. It's really pretty and I'll send pics as soon as I get it all put back together.
Micmel. I'm so glad to hear about your reconciliation with your DD. All things are possible. My DD is doing really well. She got to go home on Wednesday. Since her pressures were in the negative range, they adjusted the shunt to allow less fluid to be drained. Evidently, PTC can go away, I thought it was a lifetime DX. It sounds like that what has happened. Eventually, the shunt will be removed. For now it's a wait and see, and gradually close off the the valves of the shunt. I hope she'll have fewer headaches. We are not the only ones who have to play the waiting game. I just want her to feel good again.
I saw my MO on Thursday and there was no drama. She did not even harp on my lack of an exercise program. Yay.
I'm still trying to find all of my decor that I put in so many places I'm having trouble finding all of it. LOL
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Grannax, I am eager to see pictures of your remodel. I get excited about such things and would be walking around saying how beautiful things look. It is funny that you have to hunt for things that you put away. I find myself doing that, too, especially when I decide to put something in a place that I think is great because "I will easily remember it is there." Right, I usually forget where it is. What encouraging news about your DD. It will be wonderful if her headaches decreased and eventually stopped.
Gracie, it is good to see you posting today. Are you feeling well? Have you had any SEs?
Micmel, Having a child leave the nest is always an emotional time. You spent all those years preparing your DD for this day. The fact that she is moving to the next stage of her life is a sign that you did your job as a parent. It is bittersweet for a mother, but celebrate your success.
I had scans on Wednesday. Results have been posted. I will discuss them with MO on Monday. I think I will be saying good-by to Ibrance and Faslodex.
Hugs and prayers from, Lynne
Here are some pictures from our family gathering two weeks ago.
Four of my grandchildren in the pool. The girls went in first , then one of them shamed the boys into joining her in the very cool water.
13 year old grandson.
Another 13 year old grandson. The two 13 year old cousins get along very well. They live in different states but call each other often and are inseparable when they get together
11 year old granddaughter
9 year old grandson
14 year old grandson along with one of the 13 year olds and the 8 yr old. They were waiting to watch the other 13year old's soccer game
12 year old granddaughter. The picture was not taken at my house. She had to leave before I started taking photos, but I didn't want to leave her out. She and the 11 year old are great friends.
Our oldest grandson dressed for his jr prom. He just turned 17. He and is girlfriend came to our family get together, but I didn't get a picture of them. It was first time that he spent more time with the adults than with the rest of the kids at a family function. It was interesting to watch. His cousins were disappointed because they love it when he plays with them.
My youngest son didn't join us, so my other two granddaughters, who are 2 and 3, weren't here.
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50's, beautiful family!
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Oh no, 50's! I hate MBC. But, we know there are other TX available. I'm just crushed to hear of progression.💞
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Gracie~Thank you for the hugs. I can officially say it's quiet and I can't believe it finally happened. But hopefully they have at least household goods Enough to get through until the shower and wedding reception. Hope you're feeling well.
Grannax~Congrats on the remodel being done. That is a refreshing way to re love your house again. I always notice when I get new paint in a room, I actually want to sit in it. I can't wait to see the pics. Lol at the fact that it's bathroom. Of course you're going to sit in that room. Lol. Oh my ! Thinking about your DD!
Lynne (50's)~ oh that pool! It looks so inviting and wonderful. I grew up with a pool in my back yard. I miss it. Those pictures of your beautiful family really tell the tale of the close handsome family you certainly have. I am actually jealous. Your pool and property look dreamy. Those boys are gonna be heartbreakers and then one day she will be the one who blooms into a beautiful butterfly who gets all the attention. Really gorgeous family enjoying themselves together. Jealous!!! Glad you enjoyed yourself! the pics actually tell the story! Thanks for sharing. ~M~ Oh and these scans you mentioned results for.. I am thinking about you. Strong woman And friend. I hope you’re able to get good rest. Those pics show me a busy woman. Thinking and sending you thoughts of strength and love ~M~
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waving hello to muddling and Grannax. I am going now to bed. Can’t wait. Bed is the only place where after I fall asleep I forget things. Hope everyone sleeps well!
Bliss~ we did know that BluebirdDE had passed away. I am not sure who made the official announcement m. But I was done. I’m sorry for the loss of one of your friends!
Good night ladies. ~M~
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I'm sure I missed some posts but yay for having your house back micmel 🙂 It's a good thing, married couples should establish their own homes and deal with their responsibilities.
50's - Great pool party pics!
Today is our boys 14th Birthday! English and French Bulldogs have a life expectancy of 8-10 years and he is the last of an accidental litter. Mom, dad and the other 3 pups lived to be 11 & 12 but our little Big keeps going ❤️🐶🎂
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50s- I am so sorry to hear about your scans. I pray that they find a treatment that is kind on you and that will last for years to come. It looks like you have a beautiful family to support you through this.
micmel- I'm glad you were able to have that moment with your daughter. I'm sure it was very heartbreaking but it's what you guys ne
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Lynne, I’m feeling ok, had a headache yesterday that didn’t get better with painkillers so ended up at the Er last night and they went ahead and put me on a low dose of dexa. Thought I was going to be able to skip it but no such luck. By the way, your grandchildren are beautiful kids! What a blessing they are in our lives!!!! Looks like they were all having fun! Am really bummed that you might be off Ibrance!!!! Dang it! This journey is all ups and downs! I wish we could have a month back of our old lives where we didn’t dread scans!!!!!
Grannax that’s great news that she might be able to get rid of the shunt! Praying still for her and for you!
Mae! Love the pic of your “boys” Happy Birthday to them! Al will be two in August and we are all hoping he starts calming down lol!!!
Micmel, I hope you got some sleep last night. Hopefully everything will start turning around now.
Hi Holmes! Hope your morning is going well! It rained all night long here!
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My bedroom the wood ceiling and trim paint is new. I don’t seem to know how to send several at a time 0 -
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Lighting, paint and floor all new
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I’m calling this my peacock bath
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So there you have it, my shabby chic bedroom and my peacock bath. I’m in love with how turned out. But I’m not sending the before pics. Too ugly. Old cream paint color that had yellowed with age, popcorn ceilings, sponge painted ivy on bath walls and yellowed ugly vinyl on bath floor. Now you can imagine how much better it is now
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Grannax, your bedroom is just beautiful
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Mae~Happy Birthday Biggie~ adorably loving little guy! I love it so much that you make such a fuss over your best pal. Give him a birthday snuggle For me please??
Gracie ~ thank god you're ok, I honestly hate the ER just like everyone else does.. I hope you're doing better this morning I don't how you're even awake!!! Makes fighting everything else we have to Fight that much harder. Annoying us. The nerve of that cancer I hate you! Love you very much.... ~M~
Grannax~ thinking of your DD..... you’re remodel is lovely. I absolutely love gray. It’s supposed to be the up and coming color. Like the ole beige used to be. I wish I could plop my rear in the bathtub. It looks so inviting! Wish I was remodeling my basement! Can I hire you!!!!?
Much love ~M~
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No, micmel but you could hire Javier! The bedroom wall looks grey in pics but they are Lavender Haze, pale lavender. In the bath they are pale aqua.
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Grannax~ really looks beautiful! I think your choices are fabulous. Such a relaxing thing to see such beautiful progress done in your own home. Congrats that you have done what you wanted done. I love it..I love the color periwinkle so Liliac is A ok! With me gorgeous! Just sitting there would bring me peace! Much love ~M~
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Grannax, your rooms are so pretty!
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