My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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Keetmom~just keep thinking Colorado. Maybe they will re test again to compare. I am in your pocket holding tight to you. You will go to Colorado yes you will !
Much love ~M~
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Keetmom, I know that our minds always fear the worst when we see numbers climb, but sometimes our assumptions are wrong. Sometimes the bump in numbers is temporary, and we never know what caused it. Sometimes the body reacts to treatments/medications that way. I have so many questions, but I know you don't have all the answers. Are you going to have scans or has your MO decided to wait to see how the liver numbers look at your next appointment to see if they are continuing to rise, stabilizing, or going down? Do you still feel good now? When were your tumor markers last checked? (That was a very significant reduction at that time.) I hope that these latest liver numbers turn out to be of no consequence. I know you are worried, but worrying doesn't change anything. Try to push it to the back of your mind for now as hard as that is to do. Take it one day at a time. Enjoy your family and embrace the love, security, and joy you all share. We are all here for you and will have you in our hearts and minds. I am lifting you up in prayer.
Hugs and prayers from, Lynne
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We fid tumor markers today. We will see where they are next Thursday i said I didn't want to know anything without a plan, so o guess i will try to relax until next zzthursday
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Time to write this, which I do with a quaking heart, feeling really lousy about myself as a human and mother and no doubt many of you will think I'm lousy too. But I have hit the end of my rope.
I have one daughter. I home schooled her. Our relationship has been terrible forever. Not because of homeschooling, which people love to blame. No, her problems began back in infancy when it became obvious that she had rage issues. Other people noticed these rage issues. Yet there seemed nothing to do about them. As she got older and more verbal, her desire to inflict deliberate harm and go for the maximum hurt with her words grew and grew. It became a source of power and feedback for her, how badly can she hurt someone? Especially if that someone has been kind and giving and loving. Betrayal of those who care the most seems to hold a special thrill and delight. I have tried to figure out how to describe it and evil is the only word that seems to fit. The sick hunger to hurt and destroy those who have done you a kindness. Mostly that has been me.
When she was a teen, well, all teens can be ugly so I gritted my teeth and put up with horrible, insane treatment hoping to god she'd grow out of it. She never did.
At 21 I finally booted her out after years of being called a C$*& and a Fingbi(%@ and everything else, because I asked her to clean her room or wash a dish. It didn't matter what I asked or how, I was a target for a spear to the chest. There was no holding back with her. No standard that she wouldn't stoop to. No, she will stoop to the filthiest, most offensive lows that she can find. If she can't find a way to hurt me bad enough, she'll invent something new. I began to have anxiety and chest pains and felt like I was living in a war zone, I never knew when she was going to go off, screaming, slamming doors, breaking holes in walls. I remember the day I had had it back then, there was a literal cracking sound in my head as I knew it was time for her to GET OUT. It took another 4 months after that to actually get her out, but she needed to go and she did. The adjustment was hard but I began to love living my days without the imminent threat of attack hanging over my head. I found some peace. Hub and I liked this space with so much less anxiety and misery.
Then she moved back home. I did not want her to. I really did not want her to. I told her that if she came back she had to come back as a different person with a different attitude and conduct because the shit from before could never, ever happen again. Yeah, yeah, whatever, I get it mom, blah, blah, blah, are you done talking now because I'm tired of listening to you. She moved in and immediately became the monster that had moved out and my heart was broken that she did not acknowledge the emotional mess she left behind and that she felt no need or responsibility to mend what she had broken. She has never been abused or neglected. She lived with structure and rules and expectations. She had parents who attended the things in her life that mattered to her. She has never had a reason to repay love with poison other than she wanted to. I needed to know she was different. She wasn't. The past two years have been miserable with her here. Not every day. There were good moments. But those good moments were only good if she was getting her way and no one was asking her to help or clean up her living space. If we did, then there would be a problem. A big one. Peace here came at the price of being hostage to her evil conduct when things didn't go her way. It made me resent her at a deep, deep level. It is my belief that with a little give and take life can be good for everyone, we just need to care about how someone else feels and sees the world. But she was hell bent to prove that she would never, ever have to give a shit about me or anything I cared about. And she didn't.
Recently she moved out. Into an ancient house that had many years of garbage piled up and neglected structure. Hub and I have busted our guts for weeks working and loading garbage and clearing weeds and cleaning and repairing. Her and I had a disagreement over something and the FIRST thing she tells me, over text, is that I am welcome to never set foot in her home again. Go away and stay away. In other words, thanks for all your help, I could not care less about you or what you did, drop dead, you are worthless.
In the past when she pulls this dirt, I get over it. I let it go. I accept whatever inadequate or non-effort she makes at making up. What she does after slaughtering my spirit is to make contact with me like nothing happened. Like telling me to stay out of her house is just no big deal. I am so done with that. I had ordered her an expensive item that her home desperately needed, that I was paying for and this time, feeling like a real ass, I cancelled it. I just thought, I am DONE DONE DONE doing right by people who shit on me at the drop of a hat. Screw you. If you want this fixed, fix it yourself. This is new for me.
If my daughter read this she'd be shocked and instantly defensive. She is extremely brittle and rigid and the idea that she is responsible for ANY of the crap between us is literally too big and too vast for her to even consider. She is without blame in all things. Many people have pointed out her inability to learn from experience. She would begin to name all the ways I've failed as a mother and I admit, there were many. But when I thought I was messing up, I changed, I adjusted, she mattered enough to me that I aimed to do better, be better. But she seems literally unable to care about anyone other than in what capacity they can serve her needs. And then the more she can hurt them as she stabs them in the back, the more fun it is for her!
So here's my situation. How do I quit being a mother? How do I stand back and see the destruction she brings into her own life and not say anything? ANd when she comes to me to care about her problems, or fix them, how do I gently close the door on her face, because that is what I want to do. I want to wash my hands. I want to be done with this relationship that causes me nothing but pain. I had hoped her and I could have a relationship as adults but I am pretty sure it will never, ever happen. I am a piece of garbage that she can abuse at will, and she does, without hesitance, over anything. I don't want to show up to be punched in the face anymore. I don't want to do good things for bad people. I love her. But right now I don't like her. And it makes me feel like vomiting.
I believe my daughter was born with big problems. But I also believe they are not carved in stone and if she cared, she'd change. It hurts to the core that I am not worth changing for. I'm just her mom. She can shred my heart. I don't want that to happen anymore. How do I stop it? Micmel, I know you are reading this and nodding your head.
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Dear runor, no one else can hurt us like our child can. No one.
Please see a counselor. Find one that specializes in family crises. You are right to protect yourself from an abusive grown woman. You matter! I wish I could help. I will pray for your heartbreak because that is exactly what is happening to you. Talk to your doctor too, please.🙏
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Runor, first, some people suck and sometimes those people are family but being related doesn’t make them suck any less. I think your actions were totally justified and that you should not feel the slightest bit bad about it. This is a little odd to read though as I am an uncaring daughter myself. I am never mean and I was generally neglected by workaholic parents, I even ran away once overnight and they never knew. Recently, my mother offered to come visit for a week, I advised her not to because we have nothing in common, she stresses me out and frankly I don’t enjoy my parents company (I didn’t actually say all that, only the stress part, lol). She is upset but i don’t care, it is not my job to make her happy. My point is that you did your job raisingher to adulthood, you are not obligated by biology to take her shit.
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50s. They took tumor markers today, i think we will make a plan on thst, i said i didnt want them with out a plan i go back next Thursday. Just am not ready yo give up yet. But not many left
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Keetmom, I am glad that you are not ready to give up. It is still possible that your current treatment is working. If it turns out that it is time to change, the next one could be one that works better and longer than any others have. You are an important part of our group here. You bring a strong sense of peace, strength, and perseverance to this thread. Along with those traits, you sometimes share your feelings of vulnerability - feelings that we all have deep within ourselves. Most of all, you always bring a feeling of hope to us. Hope is something we need to share with each other. It is something that I have learned to treasure, and it can help us through these difficult times. (((Hugs))
Hugs and prayers from , Lynne
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Runor~oh my dear sweet friend.... nodding I was and crying as well. I know you and everyone else knows I have been having very similar issues. The best thing that ever happened was them moving out...I have some scars from those Spears but so does DH.... my daughters favorite excuse for her behavior was," you always take out your feelings on those you love and are closest too". UM NO YOU DONT YOU LITTLE DI*k head. You need to protect me, and us our family YOUR family you little bitch. I'm sorry that you ever had to feel that way. It makes me mad. I still look back at all that was said. And in a way have not forgotten about it, but learned from it.... cut down what I am. Willing and not willing to do. I used to look at her and say. “ you do realize I am dying right?" Never an answer comment or anything.. I agree you must take the time you need. This time. You answer the text. Or don't. One word answer or not. She needs silence. She's too busy yelling and acting out to hear her inner self tell her what a complete idiot she is, was and will be, if she doesn't wake the hell up now.
I have my son I'm working on now. He's the next challenge, but never talks to me badly. Ever. She doesn't deserve right now your attention. Pull yourself back start protecting you. She needs to feel the burn. You can't stop being a mother, but like I was forced to do. You just change how you treat her and how close you're willing to allow her to get to you. You set the limits. Simply be honest. I was low key honest. You know you can yell all you want but I'm sorry you're angry,I'm sorry you're feeling the need to hurt someone. But this time it's not going to be me. After a few times of my not answering her calls and texts. I saw a worried side of her. She realized her punching bag was removed. Her tone changed. I also believe that my daughter has anger issues as well! She was annn anngryyy baby for sure. It did morph into teenage years. Fights at school... constant challenges towards me. Foul mouth as well. Sounds like twins almost. I also have done everything and have taken everything given out. The real mention you made of was about the dish, or doing something, contributing to a functioning household just didn't seem on her radar. Maybe I did too much for her? Maybe, I was too good at it. I should have been shitty. Maybe then they learn earlier and learn to fight for themselves.. learn real struggles early. Feel strife early. It's not just girls. But I have seen my girl be mean mean mean. I can't say I was called as vile of words but. The ole phrase sticks and stones. I have less stress now since she's moved out. In fact my DH is painting that room my color, my choice , is making it nice for me. My own space... I'm so excited and touched. How romantic is that? The time is coming for us to sell our house and be together. For whatever time I have left. So paint her room a color YOU like.... show her times are a changing. Put a desk in there and show her. No coming back. I am with you in this familiar feeling my dear friend. I adore you, I would never call you anything other than a friend I have come to love! I do understand! Hugs you were a fine mother as I was. They are the ones that took advantage. Let them feel the loss. Slowly if need be. Much love my sweet friend ~M~
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Runor, please don’t think we would ever think less of you for baring your heart about your daughter. While we always love our kids, sometimes we don’t like them. Sometimes parents have to love their kids from a distance. ( that’s how I love my sister) . You must now protect yourself at all costs! You have done your best and now it’s all on her. I would screen your calls and be “ unavailable “ when she needs help. I guarantee it will be hard but it is necessary for your mental health. Do not feel guilty, she has shown you time and time again that she will not change. That means that you must change in your interaction with her. Be polite but firm if you must interact with her but I would avoid her at all costs. I’m sorry if I sound harsh but I feel that you are at a breaking point and you MUST put yourself first!! Your mental health can greatly affect your physical health and you do not need nor deserve to be treated with disrespect. Sending you a big hug during this difficult time.!0
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I feel really horrible writing that post and will, in the near future, delete it. I cannot, with good conscience, leave it up there forever. But I do appreciate every sentence that every one of you has written and will write.
Distance. Yes. I feel finally it is time for my time to be MINE and not constantly available to someone else, who is very used to coming first and will act like a jerk if she is not first! I think I have started to draw boundaries. Today she sent a text that was deliberately provoking and I had a response to fire off and I was like ... take your own advice, practice the neutral 'Oh yeah'. But I did one better. I sent no text at all.
I know this is fresh for you too Micmel. Love your new room. A space of one's own. It can be a retreat of renewal for you. I feel different here already. Lighter. Hopeful. More at peace. I hope that for all of us. Maybe my kid will come around to being decent, but I have to quit holding my breath. I showed up. I mommed. I mommed when it sucked and when she was lashing out and harming me. I can now un-mom. I hope.
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Runor, not responding to her text is a good way to start. When I feel myself getting sucked into drama I have a mantra that I tell myself... do not engage. Repeating that to myself grounds me and reminds me that I don’t need nor want the drama. I once heard Dr Phil say do you want to be right or do you want peace? That stuck with me and I always choose peace.0
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Runor~ If you choose to delete it that is your choice of course. I left mine on it, not only because it would take a detective to find now, but because if I ever choose to look back, and I know now that things are better. It makes me see that progress was made and our relationship actually improved. My family knows I have this thread, especially my DH. He knows the password and log in should anything ever happen to me. But the fact that you can't leave that post on a site that no one could really ever find that single post. Means. You're mothering will never stop. You're just going to have to change the way you allow her to effect you, and or be even in your presence... sounds like she needs to really wake up and see how she's treated you. I always remember something that is so damn true “life can only be learned backwards, but we can only live forward" Especially for these Millennials.. they have had things handed to them. At least mine have. How old is she now is one thing I forgot to ask? Hang in there. Slowly gear down the Mothering. I know I am. After all these years of being the only parent that was there and the terrible amount of stress and financial responsibilities I had were tremendously rough. Right from my mothers stomach to this very day I have lived a life of stress, abandonment,rejection,disappointment, neglect as a child. I believe it's why I have cancer. My body broke. Please please heed that feeling now inside yourself and take the steps so you do not have the mental side break down right along with it. Which is where I am headed. Especially since this horrid diagnosis. It's time to take care of YOU! Wonderful one of a kind you! Good night ladies. ~M~
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Micmel, she will be 26 next month.
On an unrelated note, have you ever watched those videos by those two ladies called I Mom So Hard? They are HILARIOUS! Sometimes the best thing to do, the ONLY thing to do, is think about something else as a deliberate diversion tactic. I think I will go youtube those mom ladies now. THey make me laugh. Thank you everyone and Micmel.
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Runor, there is a true saying that we can chose our friends, but we can't chose our family. When you have given your all, you have to decide not to give anymore. For your wellbeing sometimes you have to walk away or suffer abuse forever. I know someone going through this too. Counselling is all very well, but sometimes You and that person will never solve what ever the puzzle is. I feel so much for you, it is heartbreaking when you feel love, and it is not returned, especially from a daughter. My only advice is, do not accept any more shit, you already have enough.
Sending love to Keetmom x
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Minnie, that she is so happy to cut me out, move on after stomping me, my god, it kills me. My bluster and righteous rage only propel me so far and then I crumple. I want in. I want in. I want in. I don't want to die with bad blood between us. Not that I'm dying. But I don't want to find out I am before she comes round. Because then I will never accept it as genuine. When she has this time, now, to put things right, and won't. Oh dear god. I just want to weep. And I do.
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Yeah, who decides the definition of "mother"? Is it society, with its rigid structure of what the female role model should be: unending love and compassion and forgiveness-for all, regardless of their actions! That we must always, always put *others* before us, at the risk of ruining our own emotional and physical health? Because to be less than that would mean that as a woman we are, well, mean? As women, has society ingrained in us that the inability to create the perfect mother and child union makes us less of a person? That the failures rest entirely on us?
And who decided that if two people are blood related, emotional abuse must be tolerated?
Runor, who wouldn't want to quit being a mom when many forms of abuse from an ungrateful and possibly evil adult child is all you get? Consider that your idea of what motherhood consists of is outdated. The old ways of looking at the situation are not working. Take time to reassess, reevaluate and update what you believe your definition of mother is WITHOUT beating yourself up about how you feel. You have heard the expression, “When the wind did not blow her way, she adjusted her sails.” This describes the point where you are at in your life.
It is okay to acknowledge to yourself that you find you cannot love your child in the way that society says we should love our children. One size does not fit all. It sounds like you may need to grieve for the mother-daughter relationship you hoped to have but are coming to terms with the realization that it will never be. This can help you move forward.
A person is well into being an adult at age 26. Definitely stop expensive expenditures on her and no more helping at her place to get her home in order. I'm a huge believer in what Lynnewood advises, "Do not engage." Dh and I practiced this with his sister who seemed to intentionally send messages to bait us into family drama.
I would read up on codependency because the two of you may have some of that going on. You are giving a disproportionate amount to the relationship and getting heartache in return. I will find the personal bill of rights and post them again. As mothers, we do not have to sacrifice our lives for the sake of unstable adult children.
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Good morning ladies
Keetmom I’m praying for you and Colorado.
Runor you need to make peace with whatever courses you decide on and be firm with it. Counseling is a good way to have professional support and constant support bc family pain is horrible. Boy does it hurt.
50s girl Lynne I took arimidex for 5 years after my initial treatment of chemo and radiation.i think it’s similar to tamoxifen. That was 14 years ago. Lots of hot flashes but I think we get used to these side effects, or sometimes just ignore them as much as possible so we can function. I hope and pray it works for you!
Ladies I hope everyone is standing strong this weekend. Sending hope and positivity.
Tanya
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Keetmom -I'm glad your tumor markers went way down. My tumor markers went down 50 points, and I have to change chemos because my chest CT showed growth of an old nodule, and 2 new ones in my lungs. My mets in my liver and bones were stable. So once again, changing treatments. Number 7 in 6 years. She told me what 2 chemos she suggested for me. I'm going to Dana Farber in Boston, for my second opinon (as I always do when I have to change treatments). I hope you don't have to change, but maybe that treatment will be easier for you and will work better. Big Hugs!
Pain management finally called me back yesterday. I have an appointment on Wed. I am not seeing the PA I usually see (she's on vacation until the following week). Of course my sciatica is feeling a little better. Watch it be gone, when I go there! My sister will take my place, behind my husband, on the trike tomorrow, at the charity ride. Her son and daughter-in-law will be riding too (although, they have a rice rocket, not too comfortable for her). I'm bummed I'm missing it, but I don't want to make it worse.
I hope everyone has a nice weekend! Hugs!
Lynne
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Lynne, I'm so sorry to hear that you have progression although I hope the new treatment will be a little kinder to you, yet more forceful against your cancer. That cute little Mini looks so bad but I am very happy that everyone is ok.
Runor, Wow, what a powerful post! I believe that Divine has great insight. Somehow, we are made to believe that if our children are not perfect, we have failed as a parent. Yes, there are some that have, but I believe that there are so many that haven't. Every person is unique and some come out of the womb troubled. You should not sacrifice your life for someone who you can't fix, especially when she is 26years old. She is an adult, time for her to realize the consequences of her actions! Throughout our lives, we all make choices and each choice has a consequence, be it good or bad that we have to live with. Years ago, I was having problems with my mother, ok, who am I kidding, most of my life. Then with my siblings, with their backbiting and their need for drama. One day,I was really wrestling with all of this and I happened to catch an episode of Dr Phil. It was about a daughter who just was tired of giving her mother chance after chance to be apart of her life, only to be disappointed at every turn. Dr Phil told her that sometimes people in your life are toxic and you need to just let them go for your own sake. I felt freed! After 45 years of trying to get along I was done! What a huge sense of relief and peace! Then after my grand mother died ( we were very close), and the lack of support that was shown during her last couple of years of illnesses, and the drama caused by them and my mother, at her funeral I was done! Should have done it many more years ago! My life is far more peaceful now. Sometimes the same thing can happen with our children or a friend. You just have to let them go. Maybe someday, she will wake up and want to have a real relationship with you and you can be open to that, then again she may never be, but that is not on you. It's on her. I would also suggest a little counseling for you to help you deal with your emotions. Sending lots of hugs and prayers your way!
Keetmom, I'm terribly sorry to hear your news, but I believe that your Mo will get you back on track again. Also, ditto on what Lynn(50) said about how you are such an amazing woman! Loads of hugs and prayers are coming you're way.
Mae and Gracie, My heart did such a happy dance with your news! Woohoo!! Gracie enjoy your time with your family!
Pausing here so I don't lose it all!
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Micmel. I'm happy that you are finding peace!
Tanya, I hope that you are finding a way to get your pain under control! You have such a beautiful family!
Grannax, I sure hope you get that sinus infection reined in and that they quit plaguing you!
I want everyone on this thread to know how much your love and support have meant to me! This is a rough road and without your love and support, I fear where I would be! Dh is recovering. It is a long slow process, but he is dealing with it. His St died a couple of days ago. Sil 1 is staying with mom to help deal with this. Dh and Ds were able to meet with them for lunch yesterday when they left surgeons office. I am on day 3 in my X cycle and having lots of nausea, also woke up with a migraine. Fun, fun!
Anyway, I just want you all to know that I have been following this thread and crying at your setbacks, laughing and celebrating your happy news. Thinking of you during your scans and praying lots of extra prayers when you needed them.
Thanks to the lovely Chelle, for updating you when I couldn't!
You all reside right here. In my heart ❤
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Bigbhome, sending you and DH and all the family healing and peaceful thoughts. Quite a lot going on with you all.
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SHE APOLOGIZED !!!!
It went like this:
She phones: Mom, there is some plant that keeps growing in my yard no matter how much I mow it so today I took pity on it and mowed around it. I don't know what it is. You should come look at it and tell me what it is.
Me: Can't.
Her: Why not?
Me: you banished me from your home.
Her: No I didn't!
Me: Yes you did, you said I was welcome to never show up again so I won't. Good luck with your plant.
Her: I am sorry. I was mad. I didn't mean that I never wanted you to come around.
Me: Well that's what it sounded like to me.
Her: I'm sorry. Come look at this plant. I think it might be poison ivy.
This paves the possibility of going forward. But MUCH DIFFERENTLY !! With a greater respect for her space, which is something that I have to get better at. And I must let her ride her bike and fall and skin her knee without rushing in to save her. (hypothetically speaking, she rides dirt bikes and breaks rodeo bucking stock into riding horses, she has fallen on her face many, many times and got back up!!) It's time to love and disengage. All of you are such WISE women, loving women. To everyone hurting today, in their body, mind or heart, I pray that someone can gift you with the same support and shared wisdom that you all have given to me. Thank you. Sincerely.
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runor-Once a mother, always a mother. I too have a hard time too, staying out of their business. It's just something us mothers do when we care, even when we get crapped on. I have 4 adult children. 32, almost 31, 28, and 23. I am an empty nester (so that makes it easier to stay out of their business, but not from me asking them 20 questions, when they come to visit!). I just hope that it gets a little easier, between the two of you. Hugs!
Bigbhome-So glad to see you back on here! Hugs and prayers to both you and your hubby. My son's car, was declared totaled today. So now he is looking for a new (used) one. I have a feeling it will be another Mini (his 3rd).
Lynne
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Runor, I understand only because I have 2 daughters and I love them so much I can't bear to think what it would be like for them not to love me back. I hope she realises how lucky she is to have a loving Mother, because it's too late to find that out when you are not around, which I hope is a very long time from now. X
Just read your post, so it's a start. You can't help loving your kids!
Bigbhome, good to hear your DH is improving.
Sending good thoughts to all the group. Good night from Spain. Did anyone see the red moon? Just caught a glimpse on the way home from eating out with friends
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Runor~. I need a swelling heart emoji! Maybe now you can. Continue to answer her honestly, so she can first hand see.... that what she says, has impact. Stay strong though, continue to make her earn your attention. Sometimes they start using sorry a lot because they think that clears them from acting like an ass. I know as a mom just hearing the need in any of my. Children's voices. I am puddy.. I am glad she apologized to you. She darn well should have! 💙💙
Bigbhome~ Hello beautiful, seeing you here makes me smile, I know it's been so hard for you and your DH. I think you're amazing. I love how you unconditionally just do whatever needs to be done. I have found peace with my daughter. Now we wrestle with the son. I have had enough of being without DH during the week. Donezo. Had it. Love seeing you!
I think I have a bug. Had a headache and some dizziness for three days. My DD said her work had the bug and I think mine is turning into a sinus infection. The thing is. I have a procedure Monday. And of course anesthesia.. not happy at all. This will be my 12th surgery. Really sick of it. Everyday lately feel like I'm loosing steam. How can I be classified in remission and feel like crap? Every single day, without fail. I just can't figure it out. Is it the ibrance? I mean really ??? I'll admit my appetite is non existent. I get blood work at the end of August, and see onc for regular check up... I'm going to insist this time to lower my doseage and I'm not playing around. I need a life. Seriously. I'm sick of sleeping. And feeling like I live with the flu. Sucking everything right out of me
Keetmom~thinking of you
The Lynne's ~ hugs to both
Magda~hope you're ok honey
Tanya~ Hello darling. Sending a smile your way
Minnie~it's humid as soup here. Gross gross and nasty. Thunderstorms moving in as I type!!
Chelle~ love you
Nan~ think of you everyday
Mae~ menu for Sunday? How were the scallops? DH made me prime rib steak. It was amazing.
Elle~ hoping you're doing well
Divine~How is the foot?
Daniel and Leslie~ a big hello to you both ! 😊
Iwrite~hope you're doing well
Gracie~hugs and kisses my sweet friend
Muddling~ waving a big hello to you!
Lynnwood~ storms are a brewing!!
Patty~ love you my friend
Everyone stay cool and dry. Hugs and love to all!
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Just wrote a long post and list the whole thing!! Will try to post later! Micmel, SO soupy outside ALL week! It’s horrible!! The storms are here now so hopefully it will cool off!0
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micmel, Dinner was great but I am the griller in this house, DH gets distracted and tends to overcook them. Sunday is pot roast and maybe a movie.
Tuesday is my last day of work and I’m really looking forward to it but it is bittersweet as I have spent many years working hard, training coworkers and getting myself into a position where I was highly valued by those that really matter. My new job will be going to the gym regularly, cooking tasty and healthy meals and downsizing the house.
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Mae~wow finally the last day of work. You worked hard everyday. I can imagine it would be bitter sweet. A lot of years doing the best you can for the same company is hard. Some people almost become family. You spend that much time with those people. But also, I am excited for you and your plans. My DH is outside right now tinkering with the wood chips and cooking a picnic roast in the smoker. The roast is ten lbs and it's going to be cooking all night long. Tomorrow we are going to have. Pulled pork. It's something that just melts in your mouth. I hope they had a celebration for all of your hard work! Goodnight hugs ~M~
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Waving back to you, Micmel. We got our postponed anniversary dinner last night. Quiet weekend ahead, I hope.
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