My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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Such a beauty. Such a sad loss.
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Just saw Nan over in the Brain mets group! Nan! Welcome back 😀
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Micmel, thanks for reposting that photo of Robin. I am so sad for her passing.
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Micmel, thinking of you today and this special day! Make this a fun and happy day to remember. The hard work is done so now enjoy! If you want to, share some photos. I want to see the food table and your pretty decorations ;-)
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Micmel, holding you and your daughter in prayer today, praying it turns out to be a wonderful day for you and her
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thanks you guys! I’ll get some pics!!
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Micmel, enjoy yourself today and remember...if something doesn't go as planned only you will know. Blessings to you and your daughter.
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Micmel, enjoy this special day x
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hello Ladies. I am beyond exhausted but had a blast. It went beautiful!! She was beautiful, everyone was generous and treated the newlyweds beautifully... I had a great time and saw some lifetime friends that I've known since I've been 7 years old. My x sister in law and mother in law also attended and it was so great to see them both. My two best friends and my other best friend from growing up also attended.The grooms mother and sister and niece attended and itnwent very well I was very happy the day was so nice. The weather however not so nice at lol pouring rain all day and we had some flooding issue and people driving around flash floods. It started at 3:00 and mostly by 3:30 everyone had arrived. There were so many presents that we had to have the food out and it was a wonderful spread. I had a very happy happy day. Pics to follow. Thanks guys for the support.much love ~M~
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The first dessert arrangement cupcakes instead of cake.0 -
Utensils tables and cups . With rose petals and table scatter..0 -
Hallway entrance into the house !0 -
I'm so excited you and your guests had a good time. It looked pretty. I you did good.
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Family members. I am on the end. My ex sister in law next then my daughter then her gma then a child hood friend and then my son!0 -
The happy couple !!
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Hello all
I’m so happy for you Micmel. Everything was flawless. Moments and memories to cherish forever.
I’ve been reading sadly along. So sorry for Robin and her family. Patty keetmom, and Lynn you’re in my prayers.
Sending hugs to Magda.
I hope Big B is muscling through this caretaker patient time too.
Divine I hope your foot is healing.
Minnie thanks for mentioning me. Just trying to stay busy. Actually swam a lot this past week. No strength to do it but it felt good to force myself to be physical.
Mae I’m glad there’s no alarm. You’re an exciting person you’ll find many things to keep you busy.
Dr appts are grueling. To be honest ladies everything was explained to me but when I read it again on the patient portal I just don’t know what anything means any more. At this point I’ll take another MRI PEt scan in a month or so to see if there’s more progression.
MJH, Holmes, Runor, grannax, waving hello.
Anyone I forgot take care.
Tanya
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love to hear about it
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let be to catch up on
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Patty, Hello sweetheart. Love you darling. Thanks for checking in on my special day. Hugging you so tight! Love you sweet friend ~M~.
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I am so annoyed I had a long post written out and I lost it. Thank You Gracie and muddling and Minnie for the good wishes for the party it was so fun.
I am still struggling with losing Robin. I have been looking through all of our talks and it really hurts. 😪 the entire day. She was in my mind. I can't seem to shake it. I'm worried about Patty also and some of you ladies . Going through this is all so hard. I had a long post with everyone's. Name. I am just exhausted and have to go to bed. Too late for me. Much love 🌷~M~
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How on earth could someone so beautiful and full of life, be taken so young? She doesn’t look sick. She looks amazing. I just don’t understand , I know I never will. I love you my friend Robin. Always will. 💔😢😞😪0 -
Micmel, thanks for posting photos of the shower. Your daughter is beautiful and so are you! I'm glad it went well, food and deocrations are lovely. I know it's a lot of work and takes a lot of energy to put this on. I hope you can take a few days to enjoy this special time.
I too hate reading about the young women with little children dying from this disease. Young or old, families are robbed by this thief. Cancer is relentless and picks no favorites....young, old, rich or poor...I wish more research money was put into metastatic cancer to figure out what drives it, how and why it moves quickly and how to stop it. In the meantime, we keep pushing...and we remember. My friends and family have no idea what it's like to hear every week that another woman (or several) has died. Yes we cry on the inside and smile on the outside...and we remember them.
On the good news side, I’m happy to report that we found a house to rent that is 10 minutes from my DD place. We have less than 3 weeks and then moving day back to the west coast. I just had Taxol#15 on Friday and feel pretty good, fingers crossed this drug keeps working.
I love reading about all your adventures and challenges. You are becoming my online family.
Pot
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micmel- I'm glad you had such a great time! The decorations were beautiful and everyone looked so happy!!
tanya- thinking of you and praying for good scans.
mae- has is retirement treating you?
Gracie- how are you feeling?
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Micmel!!! Great pictures of a great day. Pretty decorations and food. I'd have been sneaking over and snitching a bite, LOL. Loved the pic of you and the family. Relax now and enjoy the satisfaction of a job well done. You've really helped the newlyweds to have a good start for their home.
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Pots~ that is the reason I made this thread. To have an online family. It's so important to share these moments with everyone and have them share their moments. It's all we really have left to live for. I am so happy you have found your online home. I know I have certainly found mine. Ty for the shower comments and congrats on finding a place so close to your daughter that is so important! Much love ~M~
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I've been thinking of Robin everyday. Is there any way to make a thread for so that we can share our thoughts. And maybe her family can read it someday to see how loved she was here, how she impacted our lives. Keep sharing the pics micmel. It just happened so fast, no time for us to say goodbye.
Micmel job well done for the shower.
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Micmel, the pictures are wonderful and look just lovely!!! Am so glad things went well and you had old friends there to help you celebrate!!!! Yea!!!!
Holmes, I’ve been sick now four days this week! Yikes! Just nausea...it’s bad. Will talk to them tomorrow before treatment about getting something else for nausea. I did so good the first round, I’m kind of stumped on this! I do have thrush and have been on medicine for it for 8 days but it’s not clearing up so I’m thinking that has something to do with it
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Hello lovely ladies. Welp I left cancer behind for one day. Guess what? It's back today. I'm utterly exhausted from head to toe. My body aches in places I didn't know I even had. Why can we only run from it for brief periods of time.? We live daily with this Grim reaper holding the sickle above our heads as we scan every three months or so. I slept all day. When I woke up, I wasn't happy, I was devastated that my life has been ruined by cancer. I looked around yesterday, I was the only person that had cancer in that room. Everyone else was just fine as a fiddle. I wasn't. I could barely sit there without wanting to scream on the outside .... “I am dying slowly" Everyone was wonderful don't get me wrong.
Something came full circle for me yesterday and I didn't realize how important and how much I needed to see two people. My XSister in law, and my other childhood closest friend, who were attending this shower for my DD. When I saw them. It hit me. I'm dying. And I have some people in my life that I loved and don't and didn't get the chance to tell them enough, especially with the divorce. I truly love them both. Deeply. When I saw them, it was like a need I didn't know I had. The smiles the love. It was all still there. It never left them either. It was one of the most special days I can remember without even realizing it, until the day after. Waking up knowing that past is gone. I am gone. My life is winding down. The need to close the circles, is becoming stronger and stronger. I found that out yesterday. That was also because of cancer. Life is hard enough. Throw ones mortality in their faces. One takes notice. The sadness and joy are there. It's a confusing thing. I can't handle the grief I feel everyday... how do you even get up? It's so heavy. Living this way. How could this have happened to us ? All. It's just heart wrenching. Sitting on the couch watching life go on. While you wonder. So many heart wrenching things. It gets in the way with living in the moment. At least it does for me.
The sadness is deafening. Much love to all. Gracie and muddling. Pots. Grannax Thanks ! ❤️
Not to mention my heart is sick and broken because of Robin. Not ok. With that at all. A lot of the ladies dying have hurt me. But Robin..... was my friend..... we talked.....our love of dogs brought us together and cancer took her away. I don't really want to live like this. But the love for my family is so strong. Why? 😢😪
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Micmel, be gentle with yourself right now, in grief for your friend.
Everyone we see is slowly dying. Every one of us, since that first breath. None of us knows our lifespan. No. One. Is it that those of us with MBC will go before most of the people we know? Maybe. We are all on the same path and we go the best we can- strong one day and maybe weaker tomorrow but back to strong after that. We just do the best we can in that step and the next.
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Micmel, first of all, beautiful photos of your family and friends and you. I'm so happy the day went so well for you. One reason you are so tired today is because of such a big day yesterday. It was a lot physically and emotionally. Thats normal for anyone to be worn out from it, Allow it. I remember very well going through a phase where I would have a good day and then a day of rest. Another good day, and then another day of rest. And so on. I allowed myself to have that. Yes, sometimes I had to have a couple busy days back to back, but when the regular routine would allow, I would have a good, busy day and then permit myself a casual, relaxed, kick back kind of day with nothing too strenuous planned. I still kind of do this, although I am not as mindful of it,it just kind of comes natural.
Secondly, about the dealing with life. I read a book, and plz, if anyone is offended by Jane Fonda, put that aside for a moment because I thought this was a good way to look at not just the aging process but dealing with mbc. In her book she used this diagram. Jane is in her 80s now and knows most chapters of her life are behind her. From her book:
- One diagram, the arch, represents a biological concept, taking us from childhood to a middle peak of maturity, followed by a decline into infirmity.
- The other, a staircase, shows our potential for upward progression toward wisdom, spiritual growth, learning—toward, in other words, consciousness and soul.
- The vision behind these diagrams was developed by Rudolf Arnheim, the late professor emeritus of the psychology of art at Harvard University, and for me they are clear metaphors for ways we can choose to view aging. Our youth-obsessed culture encourages us to focus on the arch—age as physical decline—more than on the stairway—age as potential for continued development and ascent.
- But it is the stairway that points to life's promise, even in the face of physical decline. Perhaps it should be a spiral staircase! Because the wisdom, balance, reflection, and compassion that this upward movement represents don't just come to us in one linear ascension; they circle around us, beckoning us to keep climbing.
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