My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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Sorry I'm late to the party. I wasn't well over the weekend. I loved seeing all of you beautiful brides! Loved the overalls, Mae! Here are pictures from my wedding in 1983. He had just turned 20 and I was almost 22. We will be married 35 years in October. The maid of honor and two of my bridesmaids are my 3 younger sisters, the other (the blonde) is my friend Brenda (I was her matron of honor a few years later), the flower girl is my husband's niece. She was 4, and is the oldest grandchild out of 13 on his side (my youngest is the youngest). The picture was taken at my parent's house before the wedding. The one of the two of us was at the reception at the Manchester Country Club. The one of us out of our fancy clothes, is when we left the reception. The first one was my senior prom in 1980 (he was a year behind me, I went to his senior prom too), we started dating the beginning of my senior/his junior year in high school. My parents also offered us the money instead of the wedding, but all 4 of us girls chose the wedding. What were we thinking?? Micmel, see what I meant about drop kicking my bouquet? LOL My older daughter tried on my dress one day. We could not zip it up to the waist. She's tiny! I guess we all forgot how small we were. I remember it was a size 8, and I was 120 lbs then. Boy how life changes you!
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Here is My dress I purchased for the wedding. No one is home to help take the pic. So I'll try better later. I love he color and am very glad I chose it instead of black. I'm always known to go for the little black dress! But when the little part escapes your behind lol you have no choice but cry the blues!! I used to be sooo thin and muscle. I want to just cry when I have to worry about what fits, I've never had that happen until cancer. I just got done losing 85 lbs, after the entire shoulder/ operations! I worked out like crazy every day!!! Now my spine hurts. I can't win! I just hope I don't look like the holiday hamm. Much love ~M~Pleas excuse my mirror in my bathroom, the cleaning people come tomorrow!!
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Micmel, LOVE the dress! The lace is beautiful and it's my favorite color!!! You look great, not large at all as you described! You are going to be a beautiful mother of the bride!!! Love seeing all of the pictures, none of my sons are married yet ( come on guys!) so I don't have any MOB pictures...maybe one day.0
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Lynne(Man)~I love the bouquet, I love the dress, you are simply glowing. I love the stair photo and the background color against your flowers. The way your dress lays down the stairs and cascades perfectly!!! Just gorgeous! You're a knock out mama! I have to giggle looking at the look on his face in your prom picture, it seems like he's going to get you insome trouble that night, and he's excited to get the photos overwith and start to boogie with his lady!!! He looks like he was going to be and is a lot of fun!!! Humor to me Is priceless!! Nothing More unattractive to me than a man with no sense of humor. Like a stale cracker. Lol. You look amazing and Thanks for sharing. I am sorry you weren't feeling well yesterday, I hope today will be a better day! Lovely lady!! Much love ~M~ the bouquet really was huge lol you were right !
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Micmel-I love the color of the dress (of course I'm a red person). It looks great on you! Thanks for the compliments. Yes, he does have a great sense of humor! I had a friend tell him I liked him in Sept 1979, and he asked me out. We've been together ever since (even when I went away to college for a couple of years).
So Sat night I had a "hot" day with my husband. We spent from 5pm until 1am at the ER. I started having chills around 2pm, I took my temp and it was 96.8. I took it again an hour later it was still low. The chills stopped but I felt warm. I was 100. I took again at 4 it was 101. I jumped into a cool shower and took 2 tylenol. It was 99, but climbed to 101, 102, then 103 in an hour. I called the oncology office and the dr on call called me back. He said I should go to the ER, I said fine but I did not want to stay over like the last time (which was after my first treatment with this chemo), he said hopefully not but couldn't promise anything. Now it's only been a week since my chemo. I just finished "hell" week, and I was looking forward to school vacation week with my grandsons. We go to the ER and it's pretty quiet in the waiting room. They take blood, urine, do a chest x-ray, and all are fine except for my white cells being low but still 650 and they consider really low under 500. The do the flu test, which is negative. The said my heart rate was high, and I tell them that I'm always over a hundred, the dr says well 130 is high. I get an EKG, which is normal, and they hook me up to a monitor. I get a liter of iv fluid also. They have me in a freezing isolation room. My husband had his hood from his sweatshirt on, and I have 2 blankets (because I no longer had a temp). The dr called the oncolgist and he confirmed that I'm always over 100 for my heart rate (like I'd lie about that?). They decide I could go home after having two antibiotic infusions. That took two hours. Then they sent us to the 24 hour pharmacy for 2 antibiotics to take for the next 10 days. They never figured out what kind of infection I had (I think it's a sinus infection, he never looked in my nose). The next day I still felt icky but no fever still (they said if it came back, it wasn't an option to go home). Everything I ate on Sunday had an awful taste to it, so I didn't eat much (my husband was not too happy). Yesterday, everything tasted fine. I still have my annoying cough, especially when I lie down (that's why I think it's a sinus thing), but still no fever and none today! I see the oncologist and have blood work on Fri (previously scheduled to check my white cell counts when they are at their lowest) and have chemo next Fri. It's funny she lowered my dose of Taxotere last time, and this happens? Crazy.
Today, I am going to our timeshare with my younger daughter and my two grandsons. They have a big pool, a kiddie pool (both with waterslides) and a big hot tub. They'll have a ball. I'm going to stay out of the water and watch. Between having no hair and all the stuff I could catch in the pool, I don't think it's a good idea. Hopefully, it won't be crowded in there, but it is school vacation week here. It will be nice to get out in the sunshine and warm (50's!) day.
Have a great day everyone! Hugs!
Lynne
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Lynne(Man)~sounds like its a really good idea to lay low and not go into the pool. Just because you obviously have something either going on or are just getting over some kind of weird bug. That happened to me at my onc office on Friday. I'm bee bopping along into the room feeling fine. After we realized my fake boob almost weighs six pounds extra, so all this time I'm thinking I am gaining this weight out of no where. Last time I wasn't weighed with it. So I feel better about that. But anyway, I sit on the table the nurse comes in says oh your blood pressure is high.... I said Tyeah I'm at the oncologists office? Duh! And I also took the stairs like I always do, and it's like 100 degrees in this office so I'm having concurrent heat flashes. Then she goes. Oh you have a fever, I was like What???? She's like yeah 100.9. I was like no way. I feel fine. It's my heatflash. She's like no no let me get your doctor immediately!! I was like oh great, he's not going to approve me for my surgery. I was nervous. So he comes in smiling. I was like ohkay! He asked me how I felt, I told him hot, he says yeah it's really hot in here isn't it.? I laughed. I told him I took the stairs and he was like ok your fine.
So we then talked about my surgery and he gave me his approval saying I was strong and I should do it now! I was over joyed at his support...so my surgery official date is March 30th. I am nervous... but. When am I not? He told me my blood work was perfect and that my tumor markers were normal. I scan in May. If that scan (please please please), comes back the way it has been, then I move it to seeing him every six months and scanning every nine months. I almost fell off my chair!!!! I'm just hoping I can reach that. Then maybe I could start living life. Instead of worrying about the calendar!
I have loved all these pictures! Except of myself of course. Who likes pics of themselves really. Lol. You're all very important to me as I go through all of this. I feel lucky to have found you all. I hope today is a good one for everyone. It's hair day for me no cut. Goodness no. Just a re touch for my color!
Much love ~M~
Nan~missing you. Need wedding advice! For my DD.
Chelle~ My sweet Chelle...♥️
Bigbhome~ always in my thoughts
Waving hello to all.
Much love. ~M~
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I thought y'all would like this group of photos taken by Portraits for the Cure a few weeks after DS wedding
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This one was chosen to be in a display at NorthPark mall in Dallas I write a story that was about how blessed I was to be alive to dance at my son's wedding
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I think I've told you that my son was an elite gymnast and coach before he decided to become a doctor photographer loved this one
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This one I loved because it shows just how handsome DS is The wedding was in 2003, I wish I could still fit in this gown. It is raw silk strapless gown with jacket in a champagne color with crystals sewn all over. It really sparked at the night wedding
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OMG~Grannax, tears just swelled up in my eyes. Wow! I have been thinking about what I want to say at her wedding. I'm Not sure I am strong enough to do it. I cry at the opening of a Kmart. But I do feel like I need to say how deeply thrilled and happy I am that I was be able to see her get married! I honestly wasn't sure if that would ever happen! I am so very touched by looking at thise wonderful pictures and your wonderful memories, you're simply glowing and filled with such joy, I feel it in my heart. I'm smiling and tearing up at the same time. You look amazing, your dress is so elegant and timeless. All I can say is the beautiful mother with her handsome son...... I deeply hope I can manage that one also.
I have two boys. One is 21 and the other is about to turn 17 this month. I have something time to go. Young men mature slower. I'm so happy to see those pictures... thank you so much. You look precious on his arm. Mama bear with her baby boy. I know it well. 💜💜🤗 if there was an emoji for a swelling heart I would use it. Touched my heart! I love my baby boy even though he's 21 and the 17 year old is the one who just made Eagle Scout! Ok tissue time!! 💓💓 I found one!! This looks like a swelling heart right ???Much love to you guys! ~M~ How did he do that???? Was he flipping around ??? That’s awesome !! Wow lol. Were you worried ? Holy moly !
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micmel You will rock your dress in DD wedding! It's perfect for her venue. The sleeves of lace show none of the upper arms that we all hate. And you are not fat. OMG The way you had described how overweight and out of shape you are, I had a totally different picture in my head. Stop saying that stuff! Now I'm going to post my DD pics. Totally different look and type of wedding in 2009. He really wanted a back yard BBQ wedding. So we tried to create something similar in the church. Bridesmaids wore sundresses and flip flops. DD is actually a undress. I'm in a sundress that I bought the morning of the wedding. LOL
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DD wedding 2009. I'm standing on a step, we are
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My DD is 5'2 SIL is over 6'. She was so happy it was all over she's never been a fan of wearing a dress of any type!
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micmel. No not worried at all. He was doing back flip and landed it perfectly, of course. The photographer was amazed, I was just, this is what he's done since he was eight. This is normal. He was 29 in this pic, now 44 and he can still do it. But now his six year old son is doing it! By the way, DGS competed in a big meet on Sunday. He got a silver medal on parallel bars, now that's impressive. I didn't get to go but I will be at the state meet at the end of March.
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Grannax~Look like you have raised two beautiful children into happy adults. Looks like a summer wedding for your princess sweet daughter. I have always loved the idea of a beach wedding. But I hate sand and wind lol. She looks so happy and the day looks magnificent outside! Her flowers look exotic and very summer like flowers! She looks like a champion happy and satisfied! I can't believe how tall you are!!! Gorgeous family! You My dear are beautiful standing proudly with your daughter. I guess MOB is More important at a daughters wedding than a sons huh!? I feel so happy looking at all of these thank you! I just cleaned my bathroom! Now maybe I'll move upstairs to the master bath ughhh! Uh wellMaybe tomorrow's chore!! Much love ~M~
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You can clearly see that we are the short side of the family. Ha my DS and 2 1/2 year old DGD, DIL, DH,me, DD, DSIL, his mom ,brother and dad
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Yes, it was July in Texas. Hot hot hot. So glad it was not outside!
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OH my word her husband is very tall wow. How tall is he? The men in my side are tall also. I am also 5'9. But my sister is 6foot. Tall. I love the little cutie on the end. Her little flower ring on her head is adorable. I remember my nieces wore those as well. They were so little then. I don't even remember! I could tell the sun was shining bright because of the shadow on the bride in the first set of pics. All this is so happy, I am amazed at how time fly's.
I often sit and think, it seems like you have forever when you're young and even in your teen years and twenties even.... I have lived in my house for 20 years and I love it. It's beautiful. It's not a mansion by any means. But it's my oasis and my safety. I am trying to get a music list started of the songs I would like to hear at the wedding, because my daughter asked me to Of course the most important songs for me have such deep meaning for both my three kids and my DH.. (even though my third child is my step son, I love him like my own) I realize there may be a potential to bawl my eyes out because I'm so filled with joy that I am getting to experience something so precious to me. I was filled with such emotion yesterday thinking of them so little running around playing their little games. I would be making dinner and listen to their beautiful voices, I can still hear them. Each and every room holds those memories. So when people say a House is just a house. I agree to a certain extent , but the memories are triggered sometimes for me. By the strong sense of familiarity that surrounds me daily. One of the hardest things I'll ever have to do.... is leave this place I love. And I do love it. Why does everything in life have tonhave so many tentacles and so many difficult things we face just being alive. Boggles the mind! Much love ~M~
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These photos just wow me. Lynn, you were a glowing bride and what a gorgeous gown. I think Princess (Duchess) Kate's wedding dress designer created the same beautiful look for her when she married her prince! I especially love the photo displaying the long flowing train.
Micmel, who takes photos of themselves? Well, pretty much everybody these days! And you look great! The dress and color look terrific on you. Definitely burgandy rather than black for a wedding. I think it shows confidence and personality. I think you look fabulous, please do try to love your body as it is (speak lovingly to it). Too much pressure on women, and I do mean women, to be slender their whole life as tho they were some teenage girl. Shake those oppresive societal views off and celebrate you at this point in your life. Yes, it is okay to do that! We all should!. You are an absolutely gorgeous woman who's experienced so many of life's ups and downs and you are still showing up every day embracing life. Be proud of it!
Grannax, you picked a great photographer for your son's wedding, those pics are spectacular. I absolutely covet that bejeweled jacket you wore.
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Grannax and Lynne, thanks for sharing your beautiful photos. Don't the years fly by???
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Thanks for the compliments. What I love the most is that they are both happily married. That's what really matters. Big fancy wedding or small casual wedding doesn't matter in the end.
I look back at these pics and see the toll Bob's cancer and my cancer took on both of us. During those five years (in between the weddings) he was DX and treated for pancreatic cancer and I had my third bout of BC.
For sure as I've aged my body image has suffered, I sure don't always like what I'm seeing in the mirror. Cancer treatment is tough on our bodies, inside and out. But what could we have done differently? Refuse treatment? Then, I wouldn't have been in in any of these pics. So what if I gained weight, my skin dried up and my hair never returned completely! I am in these pictures.💞
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Hey gals,
First of all to Gracie and Lynne(Man)-sorry to hear you two have not been feeling well. Lynne, what an ordeal the flipping ER can be-hate it. Glad you are doing better. Your photos were so great! Gracie, hoping things improve for you with the Ibrance. I'm here in your corner wanting the best.
Grannax-thank you for sharing the terrific photos. Love the back flip! The silk gown is exquisite.
Micmel- Your dress is sooo pretty! Perfect for September! You are going to rock it!
50's Girl-Have a lovely time in Florida! I hate tumor markers. My MO says how one feels is the most important indicator, then scans, then TMs. Mine are beserk right now, i am feeling well. Enjoyed your sweet wedding photos.
Getting my blood sugar under control. Taking 45 min. walks with DH every day. Had a pedicure today, which was heaven! Felt a little like a "normal" human woman! Hadn't realized how crappy I had been feeling. Having the big PET scan Friday with results on the 8th. Petrified and riddled with scanxiety-we all know the drill....
Once again, I cannot say how much i have enjoyed the photos! Only one of our daughters has been married. I was the "stepmom of the bride".Not sure I can locate a photo.
Shout out to Lynnwood, Leapfrog, Minnie, Mae, Magda, Tanya, Bighome, Keetmom, Blueshine, Runor, and all of you other warrior MBC sisters.
Sending love, MJH
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Divine~ The pictures are amazing I completely agree. It was A very nice thing to share together. It makes me realize how happy and lucky I feel being able to be apart of my DDs wedding. It's exciting for me to envision in my mind how wonderful it will be. I am going to rest up for a week just to make sure I can enjoy the entire four hours. I want to dance. And feel alive. I can't wait to dance with my DH and see my DD in her happy new life. Which is one of the things I needed to have happen to make myself one step closer to feeling like I've done what I was supposed to do. I need to see them all happy and in their own life lives.
I don't see what others see I suppose about myself... I never feel good enough, never thin enough, I have hips. I'm a taller woman. No small bones here. But before I got sick I was very thin, the medicine kept packing on the pounds even though I have no appetite. But as always you're just always so sweet and kind. Thank you for the sweet words! Maybe someday I'll be ok again. With how I look. I know everyone has their own beauty! You all certainly do! Much love ~M~
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what wonderful pictures. Lynn , I hope you are feeling better and enjoy the break at your time,share. Love your wedding,pictures. We can see how the fashions change over the years, and I am glad to see it was similar in Europe to all your pics in USA. Grannax, your pictures are amazing, love the somersault, love your outfit too, very classy. Micmel, your dress is beautiful, I love the lace, the colour, everything, and you are not fat! You will be a lovely MOB. My eldest daughters wedding was in 2005, I had just stopped smoking and put on weight, so I think I am fat in the photo lol. It was the year before my first dx. I was 47 then. I had to do the big hat! My youngest daughter got married in Canada in 2008. Will see if I can get a picture of that. It was another strapless dress . The most important thing is that they are both happy in their marriages.
Bed time for me here. Still troubled with sciatica, so hoping sleep will come. Keep those pictures coming, I love them all. Stay well everyone. X
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Waving hello Lynnwood and agreeing completely how beautiful those pictures are! Smiling all day thinking about all of the beauty this thread has. It's made me very happy to bring out the wonderful things that have led us to here. Without that, we wouldn't be who we are. Amazing... each and every one of them! ~M~
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One of my favourite pictures. Youngest daughters wedding, with oldest daughter as Matronof Honour
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MJH~ i am glad to hear you're out getting a pedicure and enjoying some you Time! I had my hair done today. So we kinda had the same thought! I enjoyed all the photos. Thanks for saying I'll rock the dress. I feel like I am more likely to fall over in it. But I honestly do really like it a lot. It lays just above my port which is important to me. I love the color. I am also glad you're getting your blood sugar under control. That's amazing how fast you're figuring out about insulin and what to look for. I have no idea at all. About any of that! Just want you to be ok ! Happy enjoy yourself day at the salon! Hugs! Hope your daughter is doing well!
Divine~ hope your sister is doing well!! Thinking of you!
Waving to Mae~ Keetmom~Blueshine~Bigbhome~Magda~Minnie~The Lynne's!! Nan...Chelle....Runor....Grannax...Leapfrog who is around somewhere I hear! And a shout out to GP a good friend and person!
Much love ~M~
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Minnie~💓💓 wow, those are beautiful daughters! My heart is melting with love a pride for you and those beautiful women I see in that picture. It's truly fabulous and I love the black and white photo. The stole is a beautiful elegant touch for her shoulders. I just love your hair!! You can rock that pixie beautiful woman! I am hoping for a nice photo like that with my kids at this wedding. I hope I can still loose some weight before the wedding. Even if I have to have a few stitches out in to take it in. Thank you Guys for all the support! It means so much to be. My insecurities are running wild!! Much love ~M~
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Minnie. A winter wedding? Love the stole, is bride's a cape? Three beautiful woman. I can see why it's one of your favorites. This posting wedding pictures sure is fun, it's brought back good memories. They show us how far we've come to get to where we are today.
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