Great saying about depression

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  • cmbear
    cmbear Member Posts: 674
    edited August 2012

    Barbe--sent you a friend suggestion. That whole paragraph you wrote sounds like me. Well, except the genius part. Tested that way in jr. high but its been a l-o-n-g time since I have had too much smarts.       And yes, do go get a 2nd opinon.

    Kate-I'm sorry you have to keep waiting. . .and waiting. And now off to be probed!! I'm glad I'm done with that for three years.

    Welcome Mac, glad your heart is in great shape! Yeah! We take our positives however we can get them. Your Doc said you "shouldn't need one"--sounds like wiggle room to me, there is always a what if, tell her you just don't want to be far from home and without something that you might really need!

    Stanzie--Your poor son! He must be such a trooper! Is this a "new" busdriver?Maybe he just didn't know proper procedures.  i know its the hardest job to get quality people for--the pay is horrendous for the responsibility. But still, COMMON SENSE is required in job like that!!!!

    Delilah-glad you sorta had fun at your weddings. family can be such fun, can't they? Good luck with the house cleaning with your mom. Its so hard for elder people to get rid of "things"--they all have such memories--and then add hoarding on top of that. There are experts out there that can help with the clean up process if you need some backup.  I don't envy you. Sorry. 

    Gumshoe and my3suns--going back to work can be so incredibly difficult and so incredibly rewarding too. Don't rush it. Most ( except of course mine) bosses are more than willing to give you more time--they want you back at your best. I worked for a year and half past my DX thru TX when I wish I had just taken more time off. I quit work back in December and have not looked back. My DH and I mean DEAR has not once asked when I plan on going back to work. And yes, we have a son in college so we need the $$. I've spent the last 8 months emptying my brain of BC. Well except when I come on here. Anyways, we all need time to deal with this monster, just some need more than others.

    3JAYS--we miss u!! come back and say hello more often.

    Di--I hope you are feeling better soon. And I hope you get your cable back on soon. We miss you too.

    Debbie--how did your doc appt go today? 

  • barbe1958
    barbe1958 Member Posts: 7,605
    edited August 2012

    Claire, I friended you didn't I? Your last name is Bla....., right?? You look different than what I had pictured. I've been off work since last June. Last YEAR. I cannot see myself ever working again and it will be a loooong cold winter. We've gone 10 days with just $7 in the bank!!! I know people who would DIE to live like this, but what do we need money for? I don't see my grands, we don't go out at all, no movies or dinners, we don't travel. We just need to cover our own overhead and food. I eat a lot of peanut butter and crackers and my DH LOVES peanut butter sandwiches!! Protein AND carbs. What a deal. We buy fresh fruit, not so much vegs, and milk for tea and we're happy campers. A little more money wouldn't make much of a difference. It'd have to be a LOT. But if I was working again, we wouldn't be able to spend it going away!! So I'd rather live a bit tighter with money than with the full-blown stress of working. When I WAS working, there were weeks I couldn't go to work because I didn't have enough for gas for the car!! My commute was and hour and a half combined and that took a lot of gas! Can you imagine how STRESSED I was sitting at home, not working when I was paid 100% commission!!!!!!

  • cmbear
    cmbear Member Posts: 674
    edited August 2012
    Yes Barbe, you friended me! I sent you a friend suggestion for Debbie to help you find her. And how do I look different? Shorter? Older? Remember I used to have my pic on here, but it was one I took with my desktop 3 years ago, and not a flattering picture. 
    Then again, its been awhile since I took a flattering pic. . .
    I try real hard to watch what we spend. But my DH likes to eat out, likes to buy an endless amount of Iphone apps, can't go to the mall without buying a few new shirts. I would almost swear he has some female genes in him. I was brought up in a cheap,Scottish family. We never ate out, I wore all my sisters hand me downs that my mom had sewn. My dad has never gotten his hair cut at a barber--I use to do it until I left for college. Don't know why I marry men who have little concept of money. But I'm with you, I don't miss the stress of work. I have never been happy working. Never could find a job that was "me". Never been paid a salary, only by the hour. So staying home has been a small blessing. Now if I could just get people to lay off the "when you going back to work?" 
  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited August 2012

    Hopeful - how are you?

    Debbie- how was the apt? 

    Kate- Any news? 

    Whew! Barb- get that checked out! I wish the new format allowed you to go back to different pages especially since after this disease we are all so memory challenged. 

    I've just bought some of those jugs from Arden's Garden to try their 2 day de-tox - need to jump start eating better and I'm told it will make me feel better.... but you Only drink the drink and water with lemon for 2 days----- hope I can do it.... The tricky part will be when the kids come back here... 

    My ex talked to the bus driver this morning, he gave him maps and more information. Apparently he was very apologic- he seems very nice just older.... The bus driver before was worse....so. I think he is careful, at least I HOPE so! 

    Delilah- oh my, that will be difficult, our neighbor across the street when I used to live is a horder and it is very hard. I agree you might need some expert help and perhaps blame it on the new place that only so much "stuff" is allowed?

    Gumshoe- there are a lot of people dealing with the going back to work issues- I wish I had been working or was now but just can't do it. I had a part time job but it didn't work out. Just remember it takes everyone a different amout of time to deal with BC and even when we think we have dealt with it - still get surprised with issues coming back up. 

    3-jays! Yes I worry about you when I don't see your posts! 

  • cmbear
    cmbear Member Posts: 674
    edited August 2012

    Has anyone heard from Hopeful?

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited August 2012

    No, maybe Kate has....

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited August 2012

    Hi ladies, so many posts since I had surgery. 

     Kate I hope you have your test and results soon.  No one can possibly understand how difficult the wait time is now for us, unless they have received a life threatening diagnosis.   We know that things can go terribly wrong because we heard the words "you have breast cancer" That has forever taken away our assumptions that all will always be fine and we will always be healthy.  So what I am hoping for you is  for you to get to a  sense of peace that you are in professional and skilled hands of a physician who will take care of you.  I will be thinking of you every day. I care so much.

    Diane I hope you feel better. Stanzie wow, I hope this bus driver thing gets fixed. Barbe so glad your daughter responded in a postive way.  I agree with the others that now just postive notes and space is best. Delilahbear glad you enjoyed the weddings.

    mythreesunz42 I am sorry your return was so hard.  I remember being so thankful I work from home as when I first returned there would be times the sadness would consume me out of the blue and I would weep and weep as I sat at my computer. No one at work except my boss knew exactly what my diagnosis was but the others knew I had been really sick.  I can't imagine having to answer questions and have people looking at my chest first thing.  You are the most important thing right now.  If you go back in Sept. and it is not right then step back and take the time you need. I know it is hard but no one can predict or tell you how much time you will need. It is an emotional roller coaster and it is like the perfect storm some days.

    justagirl you sound like me when it comes to college. I always said I thought it was good for them to get a little hungry.  We paid if they kept up the grades if they didn't then they had to take out loans.  I am happy to say both graduated and have good jobs but they both have loans too! :0  It took them awhile to settle in and get serious. But I have to admit I had a great time the first couple of years in college too :)

    Quick update. Surgery was a little over two hours. Skin grafts from both hips. Created areolas and nipples, which I can't see as he actually stapled...... yes stapled the dressing over both.  I was under a concious  sedation not a general anethesia.  He said I asked several times if I could watch the procedure!!  I guess that is the nurse in me.  He said he has never had anyone ask to watch before.  :)  Unfortunately an unplanned visit back down there (two hour drive) due to redness and blisters forming in areas.  But he feels it is not an infection and from sheering.  I am so thankful as if I ended up with another infection I think I would have crumpled in a pile of tears. See him again for regular appt. on Tuesday.  He already warned me when he takes it off ( not looking forward to him removing all those staples) that it will not be pretty.  But he is confident in the long run I will be happy.  So I guess patience is the key here.

    Ladies on a serious note.  I can't begin to tell you what your support and kind words have meant to me. I told my hero husband that I am constantly amazed at how kind and wonderful you all are. It is one of the good things that has come out of this BC dx.  You have touched my heart in a way you will never understand. Because I am so private there are only a few people that know what I have been through. So your kindness extended to me is something I will cherish.  Thank you

  • cmbear
    cmbear Member Posts: 674
    edited August 2012

    Delilah--Are you battening down for Isaac?? Hope it goes west and avoids the coast all together. Come on up to Orlando if you need to!!

  • Delilahbear
    Delilahbear Member Posts: 206
    edited August 2012

    Thanks to all for your advice on "expert" help for my Mother's move. The new facility said they have people to help out with what to bring and what to get rid of. We will see. Next week is a meeting to go over their program for people moving in and those thinking of moving in so I wrangled an invite for my Mother, DH and me. Mother seems very excited about the new place. As I said it has a beautiful view which she is over the moon about. She told me she is thinking about what she can take and what to get rid of (I am sure it is still too much). We will work on it. Seems that she has up to a year to move in. I guess they reduce the monthly fees until you really move in but we will know more next week. I am sorry it took the assault to get her to think about this step, but she thought about it on her own and we won't have to force her into something later.

    cmbear - thanks for the invite to Orlando. DH lived in Orlando for 20+ years prior to moving to Sarasota and I lived in Longwood before moving here. Were just through Orlando on way to Sanford for AutoTrain. It has really changed since we lived there 21 years ago. Hope Isaac stays away! We are in evacuation zone as is my Mother's planned new residence. She went through Charlie in 2004 with some damage to her home.

    Kate - can't believe there is no news from your testing. Good luck with the upper and lower GI scans. Upper GI is not so bad, I have one every other year and lower - well the prep is the worst! Glad you like the new Gastro doc.

    Barbe - as I mentioned above, my Mother has made her own mind up about this move and seems good and even excited about it. Telling her friends about it already.

    Must spend this weekend trying to clean my own place. can't talk about my Mother and look at my place. It is just messy and dirty. DH refuses to do any cleaning and with my elbow I haven't been able to clean. Since it is improving guess I will try to do something.

    Sorry bout the long post. Just need somewhere to talk it out. Guess I need to catch up in my diary as well.

    Everyone have a good weekend.

  • macatacmv
    macatacmv Member Posts: 1,200
    edited August 2012

    Hey everyone, 

    having a better day today! 

    This is what my  therapist said to me this morning. "I have a degree in crazy, so I know crazy and you are not it!"  Now I just have to repeat that to myself 20 times a day. LOL

    I called my home respiratory therapy guy today. He says I don't need a dr's order for a portable nebulizer. Insurance won't pay for it, so I just have to pay for it myself. So there!!!!! 

    I was born in Orlando. Lived in FL until I left art school and then I took off and ended up here in the northeast. I still have really good friends in the area. Disney really changed the town. I don't even recognize it anymore. I went to Ringling School of Art (not the clown college) in Sarasota.

    Hope the storm stays in the gulf and decreases in force.  

    hugs to all

    I think we all feel as hopeful does about the great amount of comfort we find in this place. The emotional toil this dx puts on us and how it disrupts out lives in ways that are hard to comprehend can feel like too much, until we find others to share the journey. 

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited August 2012

    Wow, Staples! Ouch Hopeful! Well I remember after my c-section I woke to find staples as well and I about passed out when a nurse came in to remove them. But the sound of the clipping was the worst part and I don't remember it being painful just scared me! Hopefully that isn't part of one of those anenesia things like you don't remember labor pains(Oh yes you do!) Anyway, I hope the results are wonderful.

    I was amused with our weather and Isaac all they talked about was how it would affect Tampa not how there was this huge red spot over the Keys or where it was going to land after it picked up speed and became a hurricaine to hit the panhandle. I have two sisters who live in the Keys - in and just barely ourside of Key West. They are not worried as it is supposed to be just a tropical storm as it passes and least that is the latest they are staying. I remember when one sister lived further up in Marathon and when Andrew hit Homestead - they got hit pretty bad as well and she took a video of it (yes she is a bit nuts - not crazy but nuts)

    mactmacmy- I like that "a degree in crazy" Sounds like you have a good therapist! 

    Delilah - sounds like you and your Mom are looking at the situation practically and if she is excited about the move then she will probably do fine just moving in what she is supposed to or a bit more- I think more your challenge will be not having her accumulate More stuff.... Wonderful that she is excited - that is more than half the battle. A friend of mine's Mom also moved in recently and she told her daughter she wished she had done it long ago. She was a big complainer and now she is so happy and has friends and they even call her in her room to join them to play games or cards so she feels very loved and needed - she didn't even mind when her daughter and I went away for Christmas! 

    Kate, hate that you have to go through more tests but at least you are not as worried right now. That is something and something huge. 

    Barb- thought about you this morning reading the paper there was a note from a grandmother in Ann Landers(I think) about how her daughter had kept her grandson away from her as "punishment" now he was about to turn 18 and she was "done with him". She now gives her Mother "permission" to see him. The advice was to go slow and let the boy know she has permission to contact him and to offer him the chance to get to know each other. The advice goes on to say he will need support from family now this his mother is moving away without him. So just wanted you to know you are not alone in people doing this to their Mom's. Hopefully you will be able to have a wonderful loving relationship very soon and not have to wait. I do think her note back about the poem shows a lot of hope- just tread lightly. :)

    Hope everyone else is doing all right. 

  • Kate33
    Kate33 Member Posts: 1,936
    edited August 2012

    Hopeful- So glad the surgery went well and the redness isn't infection as I know you were worried about it.  Hope everything goes well with your appointment on Tuesday and you finally start to get some closure with the recon, anyway.  I know this surgery was very taxing mentally so hope you're having a nice relaxing weekend with your DH.  

    macatacmv- Degree in crazy- lol!  I feel like I have an honorary degree in crazy sometimes!  I have a cartoon on my desk where a therapist asks a patient in anyone in his family suffers from insanity.  The patient replies, "No, we pretty much all enjoy it."  Laughing  I used to (mentally) beat myself up because I felt I wasn't "getting over" BC as fast as I should.  Now I accept I'm moving at the speed I'm supposed to and there's purpose to all this introspection.  

    I finally got the cat scan scheduled.  They called me at 5 pm yesterday.  I'm going in Tuesday morning but forgot to ask how long it takes to get the results.  I'm assuming just a few days.  In the meantime, just having a nice quiet weekend being completely lazy and unproductive!  Hope you all are having the same! 

  • macatacmv
    macatacmv Member Posts: 1,200
    edited August 2012

    Kate, I'm glad that you have a date for the scan. I always figure if they are not rushing me through a procedure, then it is not an emergency.

    When I had my CT, the RO nurse called two days later and got the results for me, but when I just had an echo it took a full week to get any info. So ya just never know. The beginning of a week is better than waiting over a weekend. All we can do is enjoy the moment we are in.

    LOL enjoying the insanity!

    So today I went out into public. I got accosted by a customer of mine. My shop has been closed for months. She was very sweet, took my hands in hers, stared into my eyes and said how good I look (puffy, flushed face and all) and that she was praying for me. I got so flustered that I walked into the automatic door trying to get out the in door of the grocery store. The guy who was giving away free samples got a good laugh. I was not hurt but very embarrassed.

    sometimes I just have to shake my head and move on. 

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited August 2012

    maatacmy isn't it funny how going out in public can be such a big deal now.  Depending on where you are with surgeries and treatments.  I don't want to go out in public right now.  I have two yellow circular dressings stapled over the center of each breast.  I feel like everyone can see it.  And yes I know how ridiculous that is, but it is how I feel.  I feel so freaky and mutilated. I also know that where my mind takes me sometimes as far as how I look is not reality.  Well maybe right now with two yellow circles stapled onto me :), but not when I am healed.

     I think everytime you go through part of the reconstruction steps it brings all of it back from the beginning.  With all the mistakes made and complications it takes me to some dark places.  I have to work through it each time.  Let the tears fall and realize how life has changed. I hate this part of the journey.  And yet I know it is a genuine response to a traumatic event and events.  So I continue to try to grab for the things I know to be true.  There are truly genuinely wonderful and kind people (a lot of them right here!), I have a hero husband that will not abandon me no matter what, I have children who while they don't totally understand try in their way to be supportive and love me.  I can help make a difference through my documentary and reaching out to serve others.  So can it be that there are some things that I have learned and have changed me for the better that wouldn't have occurred if not for BC?  I have to honestly say yes.  Do I wish I could have learned it in a more pleasant way ..... YES!  But would I have learned......

    Kind of deep for a Sunday morning but that is where I am at.  Still very nervous about Tuesday.  Another big blister has formed but it has not popped so I am leaving it alone under the tegaderm.  

    I yearn for the time when I can be carefree and joyful without reserve.  Will that time come for us?  I believe in time but I don't think it will ever look quite the same as it did before.  And maybe that is not necessarily a bad thing.  

    macatacmy the insanity thing is funny.  I always wanted to be a little wacky and never predicatable!

    take gentle care my friends.  Sorry for rambling

  • barbe1958
    barbe1958 Member Posts: 7,605
    edited August 2012

    Hopeful, I don't think you'll feel the staples coming out! Like Stanzie said, it'll be the sound that is creepy. Fingers crossed you are THRILLED with your new girls!!!!

    Mac, we've been "listening" to you for a while now, and seriously, if we thought you were crazy, we probably would have told you by now!! hehehehe

    Delilah, that is WONDERFUL that your Mother is on board for the move!! The sad thing is that she was accosted on the street and not in her home, so could it happen again or are there facilities so that the aged people don't have to go far? Are you going to end up "inheiriting" a lot of her furniture!!!! Eeeek!!

    I do consider that email back from my DD very positive and just this morning sent her a gentle email to ask if she could re-friend me on Facebook. Her Dad and brother (and families) are all down in Mexico, so she might be feeling a bit lonely now.... (hope I don't have to wait 18 YEARS!!)

    I DID phone and talk to a nurse from oncology and feel so much better. I had uptake last year too! I know that sounds dumb to be excited but last year wasn't really new pain. I was sure the new pain this year was mets. If that makes sense. She said the Onc's reccomendation was for me to see a Neurosurgeon. When I told her how much morphine I take a day (110 mgs) she got very sweet and concerned and said I had the right to get that fixed. It'll probably be a year before I can see one, but by then maybe my legs would be worse anyway. Now to get my doctor to send in the referral. My DH had back surgery with a Dr. Tucker and we want to see the same guy as we trust him. Fingers crossed.

    Kate, you know we are ALL on tenterhooks for you, sweetie!! I'm usually anxious BEFORE a scan but afterwards I'm strangely calm and in no hurry to get the results. I remember as I was laying down for my diagnostic MRI at the very beginning I thought "If I don't lie down, I'll never have to know." Of course now we know...sigh. I do remember the tech dancing around and saying "Vascular invasion!!!" Of course that meant nothing at the time. What an idiot!!!

    Hugs and gentle prayers to you all! 

  • my3sunz42
    my3sunz42 Member Posts: 62
    edited August 2012

    Hopeful - I too yearn for those carefree days and find myself wondering if I'll ever experience that again. I have to constantly remind myself that those who truly love me see me for who I am, not what I look like on the outside. 

    Another tough couple of days as we are heading out to take our eldest son off to college <heavy sigh>. Another chapter is passing and a new one is beginning.

    Love and gentle hugs to all of you wonderful people. 

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited August 2012

    my3sunz42, I remember how hard it was to drop our kids off at college.  Funny my son moved home after college for a little over a year and then moved to Dallas.  I talk to him more now than when he lived here. I miss him more now than when he was in college.  We are excited for their new experiences and the next steps but can't help but be sad at what has passed.  Thinking of you as you go through the next couple of days.  Will you be able to skype with him?  That has been wonderful for my daughter and I and seeing our grandkids that way.  Isn't it amazing how at every turn in our lives there is a challenge.  Challenges we grow toward and strive toward. Our kids going to college is one of them.  So while we know it is what is suppose to happen and work all of their younger years toward this goal it is hard when it gets here.  We know that this will forever change the "look" of our families.  I hope he has a great year and that you will have some special memories you create these next few days. 

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited August 2012

    I may feel them coming out as I felt them going in :)  I must have been coming out of my concious sedation because I remember saying ouch several times as they went in.  :)  I remember taking staples out as a nurse.  I kind of liked it.  I know sick.  I use to like to start IVs too!

  • barbe1958
    barbe1958 Member Posts: 7,605
    edited August 2012

    HAHAHAHA, karma is a bitch, eh? hehehehee

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited August 2012

    Oh Barb! LOL! And Hopeful! 

    Kate waiting with you...

     Mac- I'm going with that too as I can't spell these days! I so have done just that, but I usually hurt myself. Glad you are all right. I know what you mean about being nervous the first time out.... and odd things people can say can fluster.

  • gumshoe
    gumshoe Member Posts: 59
    edited August 2012

    I'm the proverbial pop-in poster Smile

    Thanks cmbear for your comments above. My bosses have been great so far, but I'm starting to feel the pressure. I've been either off work or part-time since January because I had so many complications. I think everyone assumes that as soon as surgery is done, you're all better and raring to go. I'm lucky I can work from home a lot but even that is hard. I went into work for meetings twice last week, came home and slept for 2 hours. So, it's really tiring me out. Unfortunately we're coming up to our busiest time and I'm dreading it! I think it's great that you quit.

    My3suns, hope things are improving for you.

    I'm not familiar enough with this thread to comment on everyone personally but I have been reading quite a bit. I will say one thing: anyone who's having trouble with difficult children, no matter the age, take heart: mine was AWFUL for many years. I was a single mom during the worst of it, and I really thought it would never end. I took her to many therapists (she told them only what they wanted to hear, and they believed her), and we had many, many fights. She's 22 now, and a completely different person. I know it doesn't always work that way: I'm close to my mom but my oldest sister is not. They are too much alike to ever get along.

    Barbe, I really hope your daughter comes around. You sound like you're doing all the work -- I know how it feels to have to tiptoe around almost every single subject. I remember being afraid to initiate any conversation because I didn't know what would set her off. And I finally realized it was more her problem than mine. 

  • didel
    didel Member Posts: 733
    edited August 2012

    OMG my internet is finally back!! My system is back and I am afraid to turn it off. I have not had service for over a week and its been so stressful. I couldnt get any work done I couldnt type long emails etc and on top of no internet service I have not been feeling great.

    Ok I am so excited I dont know where to start.,..welcome to all the newbies!!

    Hopeful...YIKES on the staples but I hope this surgery is the one that really allows you to move forward.

    delilah ..i need to re-read but I think you had a good time at the wedding and things are healing nicely? I hope so anyway...

    Barbe & Stanzie sorry you had some childrens issues...we can be difficult but I am glad they seem to be getting resolved.

    Claire... BATTEN DOWN THE HATCHES!!! I hope this storm dissipates before it reaches you...and anyone else here in Florida...Oh 3Jays you too!!

    Kate sent you a PM since my system has been down. One thing I told Kate is that I ALWAYS ask for copies of my films. You never know when you will need to take them for a second opinion and I also (morbidly) like to compare them...even though I have no idea what I am looking at.

    Debbie thanks again for checking in on me.

    I have been having some really bad cramps...did I say REALLY bad cramps and some bleeding and extreme fatigue. I think it is all Tamoxifen related. At first I thought I had a terrible bladder infection and contact my doc ..but the urine culture came back negative. I see my onc this thursday and my GYN in two weeks. Both know what I am going through with the cramps and bloating and bleeding did I mention CRAMPS.I will see how my bloodwork comes out but my GYN wants to order a US. and dont yell at me but since I am sooooo busy with work right now I will have my US after this tax deadline. I just can not afford to take off work right now as I will not have any work after 9/15 until December. So I get bloodwork done on Tuesday see onc on Thursday and hope nothing shows up in the bloodwork. Obviously if something does I will go for test right away but if not I will wait on US to rule out Tamoxifen complications. Am I babbling...

     DID I MENTION I HAVENT HAD INTERNET IN OVER A WEEK! Comcast came out Thursday 45 minutes late and were here for 3 hours and still couldnt fix anything. The supervisor even came out. the guy goes Well its your computer. I said impossible as I have two computers and neither will connect!! UGH so frustrating...thanks to Herbie at Comcast for resolving the issue that I always knew was theirs...ok...enough about that.

     I have to go back and read everyone's posts to catch up...too hard to read on my phone. Sorry if I am missing anyone...I will be back!

    Diane

  • barbe1958
    barbe1958 Member Posts: 7,605
    edited August 2012

    Good to finally get a long post from you Diane!! I understand about waiting for the ultrasound until after your tax business is open. If something did show, you couldn't afford to miss the time off in your busy time, anyway, right? And it's less than 3 weeks anyway. Keep us posted...

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited August 2012

    Diane many gynocologists offices have an ultrasound.  I got a vaginal ultrasound each year I was on the Tamoxifen.  They need to check your uterus due to the side effect of Tamoxifen.  I would always call and let them know they needed to check with the doctor so it could be ordered for the day of my visit while I was in the office.  They would do it before I saw her and she would have the results immediately.  You might want to do that so there isn't a delay.  No reason to have to put it off!!  Glad you got your internet back! It is amazing how isolated we feel when we don't have it isn't it!

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited August 2012

    Diane! So glad you are back! Wow, how complicated you internet was... So sorry about all the cramp, I used to have ultrasounds each visit and now I don't which is sort of weird.

    Gum- no worries about popping in - we like to hear from you when ever you can. Very nice to know daughters have hope- mine is 14 and just dreadful.

     My 3- I so dread the whole college thing- I just want mine to stay at home forever! My oldest is a sophomore so it won't be long and I'm already sad about it. 

    delilah-my sisters are both in the Keys and waiting to hear from them but sounds like it was still a tropical storm so probably not too bad for them. Hope you all are ok.

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited August 2012

    Stanzie did you switch from Tamoxifen to an Aromatase Inhibitor?  The AIs don't have the uterine cancer risk like Tamoxifen does. If not I would ask.  

  • macatacmv
    macatacmv Member Posts: 1,200
    edited August 2012

    barbe, so you would let me know if I was crazy? What would you be comparing me to, you?    seriously, I am glad you are starting the process of getting a referral for your back. 

    I have a DD who is now 25. we are really close now even tho she lives in CO and I live in MA. But boy did she put me thru the ringer when she was in her teens and early 20s. She banned me from FB for years not just her page, all of FB. My mother always said to me when I was putting her through the ringer, wait until you have children!!!! 

    So yes Karma can get you.

    does anyone else remember using a ringer washing machine. we use to have one we had to roll over to the sink and hook up to the faucet. Then roll those clothes through the ringer, then take them out and hang them on the line. I was a kid then. whew, makes me grateful for the washer/dryer in the basement.

     I think there are so many seasons in life that it is a constant attitude adjustment. My son has moved away many times and come back many times. Each time is an experience. And I try to appreciate each one.

    hugs for hopeful!! and diane and barbe and stanzie and claire and delila and kate and my3 and 3jays and gum etc............

    and I hope everyone has power and internet and a good night's sleep!!!

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited August 2012

    Hopeful- no I was never put on any of the meds cause of having MS. They said the risks outweighed the benefits. I had a doctor who routinely did ultrasounds - he was also the Doc who put me on high dose estrogen! I went into menopause at 37! And had three small babies and with MS fatigue and no sleep with menopause I was a total wreck so he put me on HRT but in hindsight he put me on a very high dose and kept me there till I got BC. I was on a level of a 20 year old! Wish I had really thought about it, but gosh it made me feel wonderful and I had so much energy and could do anything.... now not so good....

    I don't remember those washer and ringers but have seen pictures! Actually when I first got married the house we bought from an elderly couple in 1992 they didn't have a washer or dryer!! Just a line out back! Cannot imagine, especially in the winter- never understood how that worked. 

     Kids and technology are what get me! My son's are not so bad- my daughter she can't go 2 minutes without listening to something or texting. They are NOT happy with me at present as I told them as soon as school starts all electronics stay down stairs and they do not go to their rooms. Guess who didn't listen. So next time it will go away.... Ugh. I do worry about technology and the future of our kids - seems like everything is quickly becomming totally impersonal and less face to face which is dangerous. Of course listening to a show on NPR yesterday about how technology isn't just something we use but is becoming almost another species that we live with. It was actually very disturbing and it was easier to see how something like Huger Games  could actually be more of a future reality- not the killing part the separation between the futuristic cities with the wealthy and everything controlled by machines for them and the poor outside the city trying to live any way they possibly can.... Sorry!!! don't know why I go off on this- What a cheerful Monday morning! EeeK

  • Kate33
    Kate33 Member Posts: 1,936
    edited August 2012

    Happy Monday everyone!  Hope everyone had a good weekend with no falls or fall outs.  Ours was good.  My D(step)D just got engaged!  We absolutely love, love our future son-in-law so couldn't be happier.  They said they want a short engagement and a small wedding so even better!  Laughing  They're both in their late 20's so want to start having kids right away so even BETTER!  I'm ready to be a Grandma.

    Stanzie- Technology is definitely a double-edged sword.  On one hand I do worry about the lack of connection and interaction kids today seem to have.  On the other I look at all of us here on BCO connecting through technology.  Without it none of us would have ever "met" and not sure where I would be today without this place and all of you.  I do think the difference, though, is our generation had already formed some interpersonal skills that kids today seem to lack.  I think BCO helps us stay connected when we're dealing with a disease that can be very isolating.  But I think the teen years can be very isolating as well and the internet, texting, etc can help with that.  Their circle of cyber friends are their support group.  (In some ways they are better off because those friends are usually their "real life" friends, too, that they see in school every day.)  It's hard to know where to draw the line as a parent, though, because this is such new territory for all of us.  

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited August 2012

    Kate congrats!

    Soooo discouraged, new boils or blisters or whatever they are forming.  So worried about the grafts. Makes it feel so tight and sore.  I emailed a picture this am.  I haven't heard anything.  I see him tomorrow so he may not respond.  It feels like not one thing has gone right ever with this process! Sorry venting.