My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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good evening all
So much good news all praise due to God.
MJH Lynne and Lynne that lunch picture is beautiful and my inclination is that it was cathartic and soothing.
Thank you all for the well wishes for my daughter and family. Tomorrow my grand daughter will graduate high school. I’m taking my last 3 pills this week and happy for a break, happily exhausted.
Holmes congratulations on your new grand baby. Grand children are tiring but just take it easy. You don’t have to be a super mom. I’m sure you know lots of creative shortcuts since you do day care. May God give you strength.
Micmel your good good good news is great. I’m still debating whether or not I’ll stick with the 6 months scan. I’m feeling pain everywhere and will tell my ONC tomorrow. It could all be in my mind bc this disease does scare me and shake me sometimes.
Mae I’m so happy your heart is fine and that you are stable.
Grannax2 your pictures and stories are fabulous. Did you smell anything from the volcanoes?
Have a good evening divine, blue shine, Magda, keetmom, Minnie, and anyone else I missed. Time for bed.
Much love and hugs for all, grateful to have you guys.
Tanya
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Tanya, loved your photos too. Mae, pleased for you too. "Ladies who lunch " how lucky you are to meet up. Not much chance of running into anyone near me, should any of you ever be passing through??
Have a good day everyone. Easy day for me, bit of cleaning, then going out for a nice meal with friends tonight. X
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well ladies things did not end well with my grandson ( he passed away yesterday) I can't help but to think why couldn't god have taken me instead of this sweet little boy. I have cancer and it will one day take my life so why not spare his and just take me. I know that I will see him one day but I'm just so sad. So sorry for the negative feelings this morning but I'm having a difficult time coping
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Good point!!! Where is Keetmom? I knew last night when I went to bed, I was forgetting someone important! I hope everyone is ok. I get worried as we all know. Soon off to hair coloring.. then back home to rest ! Love to all! Congrats to the stable news we’ve been getting. Let’s keep it up. Love to all ~M~
Miss you Bigbhome
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OMG Holmes ............💔💔💔💔 I am truly deeply sorry and so saddened. My goodness, what on earth is going on, when a little baby goes through this? I am speechless and literally cannot believe that this has happened. I am wrapping you in love and for your beautiful family. I am so very sorry that words cannot express. It's just plain not fair. I'm so sorry my sweet friend. Much much love and support. ~M~
💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔....so so sorry,never ever apologize for sharing your love and feelings here. We are here for you. Always. This is a place you belong with us. We will grieve with you. I have tears running down my face. I am deeply sorry.
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Holmes.... my sweet friend. If I was with you, I would hold your hand and we could find a big hill and scream at the tops of our lungs and let it out, until we can't scream anymore. We can sit in silence for as long as you need. But you're not alone. I will never understand these things, but I do understand love and unconditional feelings.. I am sending all my strength to you and your family. ❤️💔😞. Much much love ~M~
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Holmes, I am so sorry for the loss of your grandson. I know that there are no words that can bring you comfort today. Thereis no fairness when it comes to life and death, and no explanations. I understand why you would gladly have taken your grandson's place, but we do not have the power to make those decisions and moves. I will not tell you that everything happens for a reason, because that just is not true. There is no good reason for the loss of an innocent, beautiful, precious child like your grandson. My heart aches for you and your family. He is in God's arms now and at peace. Do not feel guilty that you are still alive and he is not. Your life is precious to your family, your friends, and to us. You have many difficult days ahead. I will keep you close to my heart and in my prayers. I am sending you my love, my strength, and many hugs
Hugs and prayers to you during this sad time, Lynne
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holmes, I am terribly sorry to learn the newsof your grandson. My deepest condolences to you, the parents and rest of family.
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Holmes-a greater loss there cannot be....... thinking of you and yours as you attempt to cope with this unfathomable event.
Much love, Mary Jane
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Blueshine-THE best news! Stability=the way life should be.
Elle-Those gardens! Beautiful! These days my house is just a shelter for when I can't be outside!
Grannax-Y90 question- Did the discomfort and fatigue come after the introduction of the radioactive particles? I am feeling no effects from the mapping. Thanks.
Enjoy a calm day, all. Mary Jane
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Holmes, I am speechless! No words can express or soothe your pain! It's not fair! We don't know why, but it's Gods will. I believe in life after life and I am sure God takes care of him!
My prayers are with all of you. Elen
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Lynne,50s, you have really a talent to put emotions in words. You said everything so nicely. Always a pleasure to read your posts!
Hugs and prayers Ele
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Holmes, I am devastated to hear of the loss of your precious grandson. My heart is breaking for you and your family. The loss of a precious baby is enough to bring anyone to their knees. You are a very strong person, don’t ever feel that you can’t vent here, we are all here for you. There are so many times that I question why things happen the way they do. My faith tells me that one day I will understand why...I guess that’s why it’s called faith.0
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Holmes, I am so very sorry for your loss. I feel that there aren’t any words that can help in any way, but please know I’ll be holding you and your family in my prayers.
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Oh Holmes, I am so sorry. Such devastating news. I can't imagine what you and your family are going through right now. I send you and yours so much love and many gentle hugs.
Ellen
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Holmes 13 I’m so sorry for your loss. I don’t have the right words to say. May God help you and your family through this time. I hope your other grandson is in your arms and the babies parents
Tanya
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today is just plain sad. I mean seriously. A precious Grand baby, andfrom some of the other threads you may all Know, Wendy with the beautiful blonde hair who loved to row and live hard.....and now there is word that BluebirdDE passed away yesterday. I hadn't seen her around at all and I was growing concerned as well.. I don't understand why they can't get the cure together for all of us who are battling this awful beast. They are going to be sorely missed,Kaylynne,Missy(Kaaborg). ENOUGH!! 💔 I love you guys. And I just wanted you all to know because, Time is so fleeting. You just don't know. Hugs and love ~M~
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Holmes, I am just checking in again to let you know that I am thinking of you and your family.
Hugs and prayers from, Lynne
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Micmel, Yes, there has been a great deal of sadness on the boards lately, and I, too, am having problems trying to process it. The sadness is crushing. Not only do these losses rob the world of the lives we have come to know and value and, in one case, a life that had barely begun, but they are jolting reminders of our own situations and the inevitable end that we must all face. Elena wrote on one of the other threads that no one will leave this life alive, and it is a sad truth, of course. By connecting with strangers on these threads, we open ourselves up and allow ourselves to feel friendship, love, and concern for people we would otherwise never hear about. Those connections allow us to give and receive support at the times that it is needed most. We celebrate good news, fear bad news and suffer through the inevitable periods of waiting for any news at all. Those very same connections expose us to sadness, losses, and pain that we could have avoided if we hadn't allowed ourselves to become involved. That is a choice we have made, and we can choose to remove ourselves at any time. I have considered that many times, but here I am. I have been trying to understand why I keep coming back, mulling it over in my mind, trying to understand why I expose myself to the pain that I feel so deeply that I cry until I can cry no more...until the next time when I cry again. I think the answer is that I value the love and support too much to abandon the bonds of friendship and sisterhood I have made here. I believe that true friendships, true support, includes mourning and grieving the inevitable losses that come with them. Eventually, we will move on somehow although our hearts become heavier with each loss. Death is not something we can get used to, nor should we. To mourn the loss of a friend or loved one is the ultimate demonstration of respect and love.
Hugs and prayers to each and every one of you, my friends, from Lynne
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Lynne~You are so very precious, I am honored to know you. You really have a sweet wonderful way with words. Thank you for your shoulder. I adore you... much love ~M~
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thank you guys from all of your support. It really means alot. I went to the doctor today for my shots and I found myself we wondering why even worry about it but then my husband walked in with my grandson and then I remembered.
I didn't realize that we had lost so many of our sisters recently. I think that there are only two threads I go on and I don't think I had the privilege of meeting them.
Lynn you are absolutely right. I sometimes think to myself why I subject myself to the loss we experience but then I realize how nice it is to have all of you who understand this disease and the feelings that come with it. It truly is a sisterhood.
I wanted to ask everyone if your mo keeps asking if I are experiencing pain. My mo asked the whole appointment today like he didn't believe in when I said no.
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Holmes, my deepest sympathy to you and your family. I hope your grandson is in a better place, along with my little grandson who died in the womb when my daughter was 6 months pregnant. I still feel the loss, as I know my daughter does. I never knew how painful the loss of an infant was until that happened. My tears are for you today xx
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Holmes, I’m so sorry about your loss! It’s devastating. Sending hugs and compassionto your family.
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ugh, so much sadness, sorry Holmes. Also, totally bummed about Wendy.
No one on this thread is allowed to get sick(er), I simply will not have it. Be well my friends ❤️
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my ONC’s first question is are you in any pain, then a little later, during the belly examination, he says any pain? Then checks my ankles and says any pain here? Then back to my breasts, feel any pain anywhere? My neck he feels. Any throat pain or problems swallowing? What I feel like saying to him next is “hearing anything here?” So my answer is a big yes indeed he does. I always wondered if I was the only one. Love ~M~
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Holmes-I am so sorry for you and your family's loss. Hugs and prayers heading your way.
Blueshine-Glad to hear of your positive test results.
MJH-Glad to hear your mapping went well, and you are having no ill effects from it.
Grannax-Love your pictures from Hawaii. It looks like you are having a great time!
You'll never guess who I ran into today, at a local restaurant. A certain someone with the same name as mine, who I went out to lunch with on Monday! She was meeting up with a former co-worker, as was I. We were even wearing the same colors! Too funny! Great to see you again so soon, Lynne! I hope you two enjoyed your lunch as much as we did! I certainly didn't expect to see again that soon!! LOL
Hugs and prayers going out to all!
Lynne
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that's amazing! What a strange day this has been. What are the odds
Holmes~ you and your family are in my heart and thoughts. 💜
To all the other sisters. Mae~💜....Divine💜.....Runor..💜 blueshine🧡.......Minnie 🧡.....Keetmom🧡......the Lynne's 💙.....Bigbhome💙.......Magda 💙....... Grannax 💚......Iwrite💚.........Tanya💚.......Chelle ❤️.......Nan❤️....MJH❤️.......Robin💗.......Elle💗.....Lynnwood 💗.....Gracie❣️........JFL❣️...boo boo❣️....and my friend as well GP💜.......I care for you all so very Much, I hope you know you're all very special ladies. I hope we can all rest well tonight. Find some way to make sense of today and pick our heads up somehow. I'll be back tomorrow to continue the love and support. Good night. Sleep well. ~M~
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Lynne, I must echo Micmels sentiments about you. You are ALWAYS so sweet and kind to everyone. You manage to always find the words that I struggle to express. Your thoughts and words are eloquent and your spirit is beautiful. Thank you for always supporting us with your compassion and kindness.0
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MJH. I don't remember having any SE with mapping. I had such a strong allergic reaction to CT contrast iodine, that I don't remember anything of the first y90 procedure. The second lobe, y90 They gave me double dose of steroids so I would not react so badly to iodine. So, I'm not sure I can answer your question. When is your first lobe scheduled?
No, Tanya, we had clear skies in Oahu. No smoke, no ash nothing. So thankful for that.
I can hardly bear the news of all these losses here. Why so many, so close together? Holmes, heart breaking. I would be saying the saying the same, why not me, Lord?
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good morning ladies. Off to the oncs office. Love you ladies. We have to keep banning together. Keep loving each other. Supporting every step. Many many hugs and love. Holmes. 💗 youve been on my mind as well.
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