My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

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  • runor
    runor Member Posts: 1,615

    Micmel, darling, it's time you went on a bender. Seriously. Life has been stone cold shitty for you in the last few months and I think you need to get rip roaring drunk. Put on a bikini and go to Walmart. You need to let it all hang out and go with your bad self. Whistle at highway workers. Howl at the moon. Cry and cry until just little puffs of air come out of your eyes. Then have one hell of a hangover and when you're done, when the last headache has pounded into the distance, take a deep breath, all the way in and say, Here I am and forward I must go.

    So much hurting for you and for so many here, all I can say is man, Girlfriend, this is some shitty shit. Hugz.

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    I went down hard ! My son didn’t even know what even happened. I was a little in shock looking Iike this strange lady bleeding all over a funeral visitation. I looked in the mirror and was like omg I have to go. This looks bad. !!
  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    ...image.......last nights fallout! Owie!!

  • Parrynd1
    Parrynd1 Member Posts: 343

    One of my Hibiscus flowers bloomed, if I could pick it for you Micmel I would, but hopefully this picture will do :)

    My SO helped me trim up the little garden recently (despite hating gardening) and the plants really seemed to appreciate the clean-up. Now if only the Plumeria would bloom

    image

  • Daniel86
    Daniel86 Member Posts: 207

    Melissa, sorry about the fall! Rest up and feel better. Xxx

    Daniel

  • tanya_djamila
    tanya_djamila Member Posts: 1,540

    Micmel

    Sorry about the tumble. You really took a hard fall. Get some rest and healing going. Aromatherapy or something to make you feel better needs to be on tap

    Tanya

  • MuddlingThrough
    MuddlingThrough Member Posts: 655

    Ouch, Micmel! That must be so painful. Sorry that had to happen to you.

    Tanya, glad you have less pain. What did you have done?


  • bella2013
    bella2013 Member Posts: 370

    Ladies, I have a friend who has been living with Stage IV Prostate Cancer for the past fourteen years. He gave me his copy of Cancer Today, Fall 2018. There is a very good article on women living with Stage IV Metastatic Breast Cancer. Here is the link:

    https://www.cancertodaymag.org/Pages/Fall2018/Raising-Their-Voices.aspx


  • Minnie31
    Minnie31 Member Posts: 494

    Parrynd1, my hibiscus is just like yours!! Such beautiful flowers, but they last for such a short time

  • illimae
    illimae Member Posts: 5,739

    Thanks Bella, this year’s die-in was a few days ago. I am in a Facebook group with many of the groups members and attendees, I so appreciate all their efforts 🙂

  • tanya_djamila
    tanya_djamila Member Posts: 1,540

    Muddling I had steroid shots in my spine. I was unable to do physical therapy until I got this pain under control so I could move.

    Hope all are doing well this evening.

    Tanya

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    TY Bella. That's some powerful action! I hope more research comes our way and for every cancer. Ty for sharing

    Mae~Good to see you beauty!

    Tanya ~ Hi darling. Hoping your pain is well in control! Ty for caring about my tumble lol. It was more like a face plant!!! Lol

    Minnie~ I agree beautiful flower for sure. Such natural beauty.

    Muddling ~ tyvm. I am in some pretty good pain. I have to say. I hit hard. Saw stars. I believe I have a slight concussion for sure. Headache, nausea, jaw pain , neck, back pain, shoulder is hurting. Basically my body was jerked around. Another week of healing from something!! Good grief.

    Parry~ ty for the flower beautiful friend. Your story touched me. And I will now forever smile when I see your name. That story was made for his thread plus, don't mention how pretty you are in the picture.

    Daniel~Tyvm.... you know how it is when your Leslie falls. You just want to take care of her. Which my sweet DH always does and I am so lucky. I am beat up today though!

    Goodnight folks ~M~

  • Parrynd1
    Parrynd1 Member Posts: 343

    Bella - ty for the link

    Minnie - I love Hibiscus as they are also forgiving for my not so green thumb, but your right about the blooms. Mine are gone in a day or 2 unfortunately. I have another that doesn’t want to bloom..I’ll post a pic of it decides to behave :) they come in such a beauty array of colors

    Micmel - I glad I can bring a smile! Ty for the compliment :)

    Hope everyone else is having a good Saturday evening, and if not, that tomorrow is better ❤️

  • snickersmom
    snickersmom Member Posts: 599

    Micmel - so sorry to hear about your fall. I know you are sore and hope you feel better quickly.

    Tanya and Bella - I live in Florida, too, about 3 hours south of Tallahassee. We dodged Michael and even though we got hit by Irma last all, she was nothing compared to Michael. Our hearts go out all of those up there who are still reeling from what happened. Heartbreaking.


  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    Good morning Ladies~ snickers ~~~ Hello to you my friend. My face is sore for sure. It's not just the scratches, it's the jarring of the bones under neath that are killing me. When I chew, move my cheeks. Sneeze.. blow my nose... owie! Thanks for the kind words everyone!

    Parry you beauty ~💙 I showed my DH that pic and he smiled knowing that is also us as well. He always said to me when he wanted to take my pics. “ what if something happened to you, and all we had were pics of your hand?" Then the next year I was diagnosed 💥. That point was so so truthful. We both couldn't believe it. So now I take the pics. Even though I was never photogenic. I realize he was correct.

    Waving hello to muddling and Shelia, Divine, the Lynne's, 50’s thinking of you... you’re akways so kind and loving. hope (man), Is having a great vacation and anniversary!

    Tanya~I realize the accumulation of the heavy chemo prior to oral chemo are making my feet very unpredictable and occasionally I can’t feel where I step. I actually have always been clumsy. But this time I honestly didn’t feel my foot when I stepped. It’s why I fell.

    Anyone else ever felt that way? Everytime I go to the doctors they ask if I’ve fallen? No I know why. Every muscle and joint in my body aches.

    Holmes~hope you're enjoying your weekend.

    Minnie~ Waving hello to the other vacationing lady!

    Lynnwood~ Hugging you sweet friend!

    Mae~ Hello sweet friend. Still thinking about you! 🤲💙

    Hello Bella~ ty for sharing that link. It means a lot for every cancer to be taken out!

    Runor~Hello hello hello! Miss you!

    Haven’t seen Magda.. she came out for a brief post when Patty passed💔😪, haven’t seen her since.

    Grannax~Hello fashionista. I guess my huge gashes in my nose answers the fashion question for me!

    Would you all believe I think I have lost my mind. I'm watching Wonder Woman. Before that, I watched two episodes of Charlie's Angels. Love love the older shows.

    Then it brought me to think of Farrah Fawcett, she died of one of the rarest forms of cancer, Anal...it has been said a link to HPV has been established... which would explain that it was not available when she was a teenager. She was absolutely perfectly gorgeous, and funny! I watched many documentaries on her battle and I gotta say it certainly doesn't matter if you're beautiful. Or an actor... or loaded with money. It just doesn't matter. I found that she was smart and brave. And she also lost her beautiful mane. That she was known for. It was her trademark, per say....

    Parry, when you mentioned loosing your long hair. It broke my heart as well because my hair was killer long also. It's growing back. I'm thrilled. But I miss the thickness and the fact that my entire body hadn't been butchered and ruined by rogue cells.

    Have a great Sunday! Much love ~M~

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    It has just been brought too my attention that another sister has been lost to us. Babs.... from the liver mets and bone mets thread and even maybe ibrance at some point. She was something else. Loved her family and her grandson. She had an amazing bond with her family. It’s very sad to think of how they must feel loosing their matriarch of the family. I am thinking of them all at this difficult time. So very sorry 💔😪

  • holmes13
    holmes13 Member Posts: 192

    micmel- i hope the achiness doesn’t last long. it looks like you took a good tumble.

    parry- gorgeous! you are going to make a beautiful bride! it looks like you were diagnosed a month after me.

  • Parrynd1
    Parrynd1 Member Posts: 343

    Micmel - I was the same...never wanted photos taken, but I’ve loosened up very much about this and SO couldn’t be happier! Sometimes I think he could have gone into photography. My hair goes to my shoulders now that it’s growing back, but I was surprised to find it’s now very curly so it’s been an interesting road relearning how to style it (especially at this length). You can get your hair to long and healthy again. Im sure there are vitamins and foods that help without that also :) I try to think of my scars and how lumpy my scalp is (thank goodness it’s in the back where I can cover with hair) as the proof I’ve lived and fought for this life. I don’t think anyone gets to old age without some scar physical or otherwise.

    Holmes - Thanks :) only a few months till the wedding. We can be D (diagnosis) day sisters!

    I didn’t know Babs, but very sorry to hear of this regardless. RIP sister

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    Holmes~I sure did. Today is the jaw aches. Headaches. And nose aches. It really is annoying when you forget you're hurt when you wipe your nose. pain pain reminds me.

    Parry, you will be an amazing Bride and wow it's coming really soon!! My hair is finally doing good. It was curly when it first came in. I always straighten it. I like it better that way. It is below my shoulders now, so I'm hoping to keep my length. I refuse to do another treatment that will take my hair. I've already told my family!

    I am so excited for you. I wish you long long decades of happiness with your be DH you beautiful soul!

    I feel bad when someone passes. I can't make myself address them in past tense. Babs was a really great friend to those who were close to her. She was loving to her family so very much. She was to be admired. Always gorgeous and flawless in her appearance and the way she carries herself was pure elegance. I remember her trip to Israel, and the birth of her grandson. She had some trips to Paris I believe as well. She was amazing! Rip special lady!

    Much love ~M~

  • MJHJAN1014
    MJHJAN1014 Member Posts: 622

    Babs- such a dear one with a most amazing spirit. I am gutted. May her family be surrounded by grace and love.

    Micmel- OK- a fall? Too much- soooo sorry to hear. Hope the soreness is abating. Thinking of you.

    Love the Hibiscus! Want to try one on my terrace here in Maine next summer.....

    Tired out from cooking and cleaning. Getting ready for a 4 day trip to N.C. to see one of my dear aunts, so wanting to make things easy for DH, who is still recovering from rotator cuff surgery. He will have both grandchildren for a couple of the days, so leaving meals, etc. We got our first frost here last night; we now have turned on my big AGA cooker in the kitchen, so it's nice and toasty and, boy, do I love cooking on that thing!

    Still feeling well on Madame X. Thinking of each of you as we travel this surreal journey together. Hope everyone is cozy and peaceful tonight and not being bugged by SE's.

    Love, Mary Jane

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    MJH~Yup and it was a doosey. Today the swelling Is down, but the pain is here. especially sore. Been real tired. Thinking minor concussion. But every day I'll feel Better. I think what bothers me is the neuropathy that my feet have. It just kinda stops working and it just folds up on you, your toes don't work well either. I am going to have to really watch that. I have it in the tips of my fingers as well. The whole thing just suckssssss! MJH,You're always so busy. I'm impressed by your energy and what you accomplish! I hope you have safe travels and your aunt is ok after rotator cuff surgery. I have had it, it's no Picnic. The physical therapy is the challenge! I wish you well. Be safe hugs ~M~

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    .... another day of clouds and rain. I can only imagine how people are coping with the aftermath of this horrible hurricane. We will take every drop of water of moisture for Florida and all other states, just so you don't have anymore rain. Thinking of you all. Much love ~M~

    Any scans this week ladies, don't forget to look in your pocket. Your posse will try to keep it down.

    Lynnwood~Hello sweetheart 😊

    Hello to Parry!!~hope you slept well.

    The vacationers. Travel safely and have a blast and make those memories. My face feels better today. But it's the bones still. It's going to be all week for sure. Slight concussion for sure.

    Have a safe wonderful day! Hugs ~M~

  • Parrynd1
    Parrynd1 Member Posts: 343

    MJH - My Hibiscuses have been very tolerant, but it doesn’t get too cold out here. You may be able to winterize them though so it’s worth a shot. They do give such lovely flowers:)

    Micmel - Glad each day is better. Sorry your still pretty sore though, and a concussion - yikes! Glad it wasn’t worse. I slept like a log. This new treatment has me wiped out. Very stiff muscles and nerve pain, like a pinched nerve in various locations, but I’m here so these are minor complaints. I’m more grumpy about having to get up at 5am to beat traffic for my infusion today, lol. At least I had coffee. It’s my treat on doctor days.

    Cheers to everyone! Hope the week treats you well.

  • Stllivin
    Stllivin Member Posts: 79

    Micmel,

    I so sorry you fell. Ouch!!! It made me hurt to hear that happened to you. I’m glad your son was with you to take care of you. I hope you recovery is going well. You are in my thoughts.

    Suzy.

  • Minnie31
    Minnie31 Member Posts: 494

    Sorry to hear about Babs RIP. Thoughts are with her family.

    Micmel, hope you are on the mend. I have neuropathy in my fingers and toes. Sometimes have to be careful lifting my feet up steps or down. Afraid of falling, I have done a couple of times but didn't fall as hard as you.

    Parry, I have a variety of Hibiscus, same colour as yours, and in a beautiful red, and also a white flower with red in the centre. I have cut most of them back a little as they were getting too big. We don't have frost here so they will grow all winter too.

    Hope everyone is well, and,if there are scans or treatments, it all goes well. I am attaching a photo of me, in the dark dress, and my friend on the Swarofski staircase on the Cruise ship. Hid the crutchesimage

  • MuddlingThrough
    MuddlingThrough Member Posts: 655

    Minnie, gorgeous! 😍 So elegant.

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    Minnie~ you look amazing. I love the stair case. It looks like a scene from Charlie's Angels! You're going to go investigate the captain!!! Dazzling 🚢 ship . More pic more pics. I sincerely hope you're enjoying yourself... you amaze me. I slept all day today and you look like that.... you ladies are strength for sure !

    Parry~Hello beauty. I love flowers period. I just have a black thumb and could ruin a fake plant! I have a huge bruise on my foot and it's mean. My face looks better today but I really didn't want to kiss the concrete.. I'm still picking pebbles out of my hands. Road burn for sure.

    Muddling~ waving hello to you darling.. hope all is well.

    Stilllivin~ thank you my sweet friend. You're such a. Doll. I'm so thankful for your constant kind and loving words. You're one in a million aren't you. ?

    I have to say I have met some wonderful women and men on these boards. Like Daniel, who loves his Leslie endlessly and comes here to be apart of her world, and learn for her. His family comes first. That's love

    Miss Bianca~Sends me a personal message almost daily building me up and giving me things to search my soul about. Each and everyone of you here mean the world to me! I hope you all realize that!

    Hello Mae...Grannax.....MJH....our Lynne's..... Bigbhome...Hobbes...Holmes... Magda Runor...Bella.....JKL.......Chicagoan....GP.....Tanya.....Sheila.....Gracie...masons...if there is anyone I've missed I'll be back! Lol my mind hurts from the fall ! Ick!

    Much love ~M~


  • illimae
    illimae Member Posts: 5,739

    Hi back 🙂 I’m here but have been sick since Thursday. This one really knocked me on my ass.

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,055

    It is certainly a strong cold going round. I’m still not convinced it isn’t the flu! Drink drink rest rest dear friend. Good to see you beautiful! Saw you on Instagram! ❤️Much love ~M~

  • MJHJAN1014
    MJHJAN1014 Member Posts: 622

    imageHere are some of my home grown pumpkins! Leaving for N.C. at the crack of dawn!