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My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

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  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,053

    will be present for pocket duty! I may look haggard. But I’ll be there! Be safe driving please. I’m not a snow/cold person. Well winter has arrived. It’s freaking cold as heck out there. It makes me want to hermit inside. So dress warmly and be safe!

  • candy-678
    candy-678 Member Posts: 4,168

    Goldens- Pocket duty for you for tomorrow's scans and for safety on the road. When will you know results?

  • moth
    moth Member Posts: 3,293

    Goldens, best wishes for tomorrow. Sounds like a long day. I hope everything goes well and the weather and roads cooperate.

  • kbl
    kbl Member Posts: 2,963

    I am in your pocket, Rosie and Goldens. I hope your drive is a smooth one, Goldens. I couldn't drive I snow if I wanted to. Haven't seen it in 40 years.

    Candy, I so get where you're coming from. I have things to tackle as well and just cannot get motivated.

    I just want to sit outside. The weather is beautiful right now.

    Mel, I’m thinking of you. I’m so sorry you’re going through such a shit storm.

  • illimae
    illimae Member Posts: 5,721

    Goldens, jumping in your pocket too! Bringing chocolate to share with the girls :)

  • tanya_djamila
    tanya_djamila Member Posts: 1,537

    MJH Jan dear sweet sister. She used to post around the same time as BigB and Minnie too.

    Rosie sorry about the delays with your MRI. Now the wait for the results.

    Golden's I'm in for pocket duty and the long drive. I hope the Weather holds off. That's a long day. I know Candy takes the long drive now for better quality of service too. I'm in with leftover turkey sandwiches for all.

    Mel I hope your son gets better soon. I heard many tips similar to the ones shared. One lady said to keep turning over and sitting up to keep the fluid from settling in lungs. (IDK) 27 degrees means the windows would have to be a crack. Sorry about the DD too. She may just need to figure out what she wants is all.

    Booboo welcome home!!!

    Kitty I hope you're feeling a little better today. Are you on penicillin now too.

    Mara enjoy yours walks. It's a beautiful day for walking but I think I'll just play around in the garden and stay close to home.

    Moth your radiation is winding down. You'll be so relieved when it's over. I pray for the best results for the longest amount of time.

    50's girl it's sad to say goodbye to MJH. She was always so encouraging and uplifting.

    Candy good scan results. It's always nice to read them after they've been explained. A lot to be grateful for with the medication working like that.

    I cooked a lot yesterday and I cannot do it without back pain anymore so today no standing and cooking. I made turkey breast mashed potatoes and broccoli and then I made zuchinni bites for breakfast for the week and potato salad to go with the sandwiches that we'll be having for a day or two. I stopped going to acupuncture, since the pandemic but started back last week and got a thorough treatment with b-12 shot and all. Today I went to acupuncture again and will go again Thursday. I feel so much better. I think Philly was an acupuncture Dr.

    Waving hello to all

    Tanya



  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,053

    KBL,Tanya ladies... he's holding his own. But he has a few more days quarantined before he can come back out. My DH scrubbed the spare bedroom carefully for my DD. She'll be staying there until who knows when. But that's what family is for.... I love her dearly. Hate to see things like this. My ds can't get to clean his room, dd room always clean. Total opposite. Maybe she'll rub off on him. Had one gone. Now have two back. This math doesn't add up. 🤪 this covid stuffs gotta go. I'm loosing my marbles.

    Philly also dealt with cupping as well, I believe. She has her own business.

  • goldensrbest
    goldensrbest Member Posts: 725

    Candy -

    My MO told me that results get posted as soon as they are read now. In the past the MO had to release them. Of course I will read them - I can’t change results whether things are stable or show progression. My MO was always good about giving results within a few hours. She would post in MyChart if results were stable or call if there was a problem. Thankfully I never had a call.
    Thank you all for pocket duty!

    Tanya - I know about the cooking and back pain. I give you credit for fighting through and cooking so much.


  • candy-678
    candy-678 Member Posts: 4,168

    My heart is sad.

    I was just on Facebook and a Facebook friend and old co-worker posted "This is my last post. A few days ago I discontinued all treatment except comfort measures". He has battled Stage 4 cancer for 8 years, I forget the primary.

    I hate cancer. Hate it. It is evil. He was a smart, talented guy.

    I am so tired of this.

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,053

    I am so sorry Candy. I hate it also. It’s evil and isn’t forgiving or caring. What a surreal post to have read. I’m so sorry.

  • mara51506
    mara51506 Member Posts: 6,468

    Candy, I am sorry to hear about your friend. 8 years is a long time dealing with cancer. My thoughts are with you and him as well.

  • kbl
    kbl Member Posts: 2,963

    Candy, I'm sending a hug. I'm sorry for your friend.

    I've been dealing with my cancer seven and a half years, only I didn't know it. It makes me go to dark places sometimes, especially since it's such a freaking sneaky cancer I have. I fight the feelings because I do not want to live like that for the rest of my time. I think the thing I'm most scared of is feeling fine one day and then feeling awful the next and going on the down slide. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels that way.

    Mel, I feel for you so much. I just want to say from experience that as much as I wish my daughter's first marriage wouldn't have happened, without it, I would not have my wonderful son-in-law or beautiful grandbaby. There is no way one would have happened without the other. It's hard to explain. It's so hard to see our children in pain. Hugs to you as well.

  • kittykat9876
    kittykat9876 Member Posts: 420

    In your pocket tomorrow Goldens, please be careful on the roads.

    I've been pumped full of antibiotics, potassium and magnesium is next up on the list Tanya I don't have a port so this cannula is precious, I've been babying it all night.

    I'm so sorry to hear about your friend Candy. This disease really is hideous. I'm going to try and get some sleep now, I've been awake most of the night. A big shout out to anyone I've missed.

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,053

    I so think my mind is worn out. All of this worrying about my son and everyone catching it. Tomorrow is his last day. If he's fever free then he's good to go. He hasn't had a fever well over four days. The doctor said five and he's clear. So he will be quarantined 8 days total. Goes back for another test and if he's clear. He's clear. I'm hoping against hope that's the case. His room looks like a bomb went off in it. This has been a nightmare. I hope none of you have to deal with any of your family members getting it. Today we face timed and he finally opened his presents. I was waiting like a dog with a bone to see if he liked his things. Luckily, he liked everything I got for him. He got some Christmas cash too which we all love. I'll just be glad when this part is over. But we realize the diligence and care must continue or else someone else could. Bring it right back ! I don't want him out new years. Eve. To get sick all over again. I'd go bonkers.

    I hope you're all hanging in there and that the scanning coming up will be easy peasy. Pocket duty tag along here!! Thanks for all the well wishes. It means a lot.

  • goldensrbest
    goldensrbest Member Posts: 725

    Only got 3 inches of snow which ended well b4 we went to bed. I know those poor weather folks get raked over the coals for wrong forecasts but science can only do so much - right ladies (hehe😉). It is windy so I suspect some icy parts but I’ve driven in snow all my life so I’m uber careful.

    Mel - hopefully COVID leaves your home and doesn’t come back

    Candy - so sorry about your friend. As I go off to my scans, I think how cancer is the pits. Robs us of family, friends and even our dear fur kids. Obviously I love goldens, but did you know that 70% of them die from cancer. It is just rampant in a number of breeds. The Morris Foundation is working with 3000 goldens in a study on cancer in that breed.

    I will report results of scans later. A peaceful day to all!

  • candy-678
    candy-678 Member Posts: 4,168

    Goldens- Safe driving and pocket duty here for your scans. Bringing cinnamon rolls-- full of icing.

  • kbl
    kbl Member Posts: 2,963

    Goldens, it's been a few hours since your post, so I'll say I hope you made it safely. And I hope for good results.

    My next-door neighbor had two Goldens. They had the one's leg amputated because he had cancer. He lived two years after that. It's amazing that there is so much cancer in that breed. I hope they can figure out why.

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,053

    available for pocket duty! Snacks and coco in hand! love to all you ladies.

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,053

    another person I’ve missed seeing is lynnwood. She hasn’t checked in in a while now. Just thinking of her.

  • moth
    moth Member Posts: 3,293

    Gals, I'm suddenly really tentative about opening my daytimer/planner for 2021. I bought it almost on auto pilot because I've used one for decades. I have a favourite brand and layout and each year it's just a matter of choosing the year's color or seeing if any of their special editions catch my eye. And now it's sitting here & it's still shrink wrapped & I'm giving it side eye. Wow. Planning for a whole 2021? Seems ... ambitious. I have to steel myself & do it

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,053

    a whole other year. Sounds difficult for me to do as well. I can barely think weekly.

  • illimae
    illimae Member Posts: 5,721

    Moth, “side eye” lol. One of my dogs used to give us crazy side eye. I say go for it and plan away, it’s ok if plans change but I always feel better with a plan. I like a plan for motivation too.

  • candy-678
    candy-678 Member Posts: 4,168

    Moth- I get it. I am organized like you. I use a paper calendar (with cat pictures on it). It is kind of freaky planning and thinking about a new year. What will happen in 2021? Of course everyone doesn't know what the New Year holds, but with cancer I think we are more tuned in to our future and the what if's. Take a deep breath and open it. And say a prayer that 2021 will be ok.

  • goldensrbest
    goldensrbest Member Posts: 725

    Pocket duty did the trick. Lung mets and bone mets stable! Thank you ladies! Lumbar MRI was done more to see if something was causing pain and was essentially unchanged from year ago. Will review that with spine doc in January. But the day was a disaster otherwise. Left at 8:30 am but roads were fine so I was there 30 minutes b4 my first appt. Didn’t get home till 7:30 pm. 🤬. Had hoped to be home by 5. Will explain that tomorrow as I am officially pooped. Hugs to all.

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,053

    I feel numb , tired, frustrated, angry, worried, you name it. My step father who I adore, had a mild heart attack today. They live in Mississippi so basically I can do nothing , my mother cannot walk well without her walker. He is her main caretaker. Now he's in the hospital and she's down there alone with no family around. I've been telling her for years especially this past year and i even went as far as to help her get a reasonable incomed apartment for them. So they would be here near the family. She didn’t take it, Now look. Now see what has happened? The past week has been so shitty I have no words. I have ONE person in my life that I count on, that I trust with everything and anything. My go to. We had some words earlier in the weekend and I saw a mean side of them and it scared me. So much that the rug has been tugged around a bit underneath me. I feel vulnerable and scared for the first time ever with this person. I don't know how to get over it. I feel so confused. Everything seems to be piling up and rolling down hill and I can't keep up with any of it. It leaves me buried at the bottom unable to catch my breath or think a thought. I was hoping 2021 would be a good year and all this fog would clear up. Maybe it's just beginning to roll in?

  • moth
    moth Member Posts: 3,293

    thx for checking in, Goldens. Hurray on stable! and rest up

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,053

    congrats Goldens! Pocket duty troopers. ! On to the next duty armed with snacks and drinks.

  • sandibeach57
    sandibeach57 Member Posts: 1,387

    Micmel..thinking of you.

  • Rosie24
    Rosie24 Member Posts: 1,026

    Mel, Sending you a hug. Sorry so many things are happening all in a short time. When it rains it pours, they say. You’re living it. There has to be a ton of stress at your house. I hope you and your special person can have a heart to heart talk and hear each other’s perspectives and feelings on all that’s been happening. And oh man, how to help your mom from a distance? I’m sure others will offer ideas to you. Pocket duty till things settle a bit for you.

  • Rosie24
    Rosie24 Member Posts: 1,026

    Goldens, great news! Glad you are back home after that super long day.